Chapter 2: Between Adam and Jesus
Just the other night I was reading a sentence from Baudelaire. It is simply, unbelievably true. Baudelaire says, “The truth is; the truth is beautiful; the truth is good; the truth is God. I believe in it. That’s why I am going to oppose it” From where does this opposition come? Baudelaire says, “If I don’t oppose it, then I will not be. I have to say no; only then can I be.” Otherwise, truth is overpowering: it envelops you, it surrounds you. You simply disappear in it, you melt into it.
You can say that you have done evil, but you cannot say that you have done good. Good is always done by God. Good is already there, you are not needed to create it. Evil has to be created. Good can only be discovered; evil has to be created. The reality is there, the dream has to be created. You can claim your authorship about dreams; you cannot claim your authorship about reality - that’s the temptation. “No” is very tempting. The very goodness of God tempts you against him. You have to oppose him, you have to go against, you have to betray, otherwise you will be lost. Adam says, “No,” Jesus says, “Yes,” and I say, this is the whole history of man. Adam is the first son of man, and Jesus is the first son of God. By saying yes, by surrendering, he disappears. Only then, God remains.
“In the prayer Our Father does God lead us in temptation?”
God cannot lead you, but you are led by your own mind. A temptation arises because God seems to be destroying you. I come across people every day who would like to say yes to me, who would like to surrender, but they cannot - it is too risky, it is dangerous. I can feel that something in them tempts them not to surrender. Something in them says, “Go away, don’t be here. It is dangerous to be here.” It is not that I am tempting them, but they are tempted. Wherever you see something which is already there, nothing is to be done. You have only to recognize it. But then where will you be? - that is the temptation. The ego is the temptation.
The second question:
Yesterday I heard that my friend had died. Yet as I wept, I found myself giving thanks for the sweetness of life. Is there a place for mourning?
If you have loved somebody, really loved, and you didn’t miss an opportunity to love, then there is no place for mourning because then there is no repentance. You never postpone anything, death cannot destroy anything. If you postpone, then death destroys. For example: you love somebody but you say, “I will love tomorrow,” and that’s what you go on saying. You go on imagining tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, You go on postponing: you fight today, you will love tomorrow. You are angry here-now, you will love tomorrow. You go on postponing.