Chapter 6: The Need to Win
Can you define time? Nobody has seen it, there is no way to see it. If you look, it is gone; if you think, it is not there. When you don’t think, when you don’t look, when you simply are, it is there. You live it. And Saint Augustine is right: godliness can be lived, but cannot be seen. Time can be lived, but cannot be seen. Time is not a philosophical problem, it is existential. God is also not philosophical, it is existential. People have lived him, but if you insist on a definition they will remain silent, they cannot answer. And if you can be in this moment, the doors to all the mysteries are open.
So throw off all desires, remove all the dust from your eyes, be at ease within, not longing for something, not even for godliness. Every longing is the same, whether you long for a big car, or a god, or a big house, it makes no difference. Longing is the same. Don’t long - just be! Don’t even look - just be! Don’t think! Let this moment be there, and you in it, and suddenly you have everything - because life is there. Suddenly everything starts showering on you, and then this moment becomes eternal and then there is no time. It is always the now. It never ends, it never begins. But then you are in it, not an outsider. You have entered the whole, you have recognized who you are.
Now try to understand Chuang Tzu’s sutra: the need to win. From where does this need arise - the need to win? Everybody is in search of victory, seeking to win, but why does this need to win arise?
You are not in any way aware that you are already victorious, that life has happened to you. You are already a winner and nothing more is possible, all that could happen has happened to you. You are already an emperor, and there is no other kingdom to be won. But you have not recognized it, you have not known the beauty of the life that has already happened to you. You have not known the silence, the peace, the bliss that is already there.
Because you are not aware of this inner kingdom, you always feel that something is needed, some victory, to prove that you are not a beggar.
Alexander the Great was coming to India - to win, of course - because if you don’t need to win you will not go anywhere. Why bother? Athens was so beautiful, there was no need to bother to go on such a long journey.
On the way he heard that one mystic, Diogenes, lived by the side of a river. He had heard many stories about him. In those days, in Athens particularly, only two names were spoken about - one was Alexander, the other was Diogenes. They were two opposites, two polarities. Alexander was an emperor, and was trying to create a kingdom which stretched from one end of the earth to the other: “The whole world should be in my possession.” He was a conqueror, a man in search of victory.
And there was Diogenes, the exact opposite completely. He lived naked, not a single thing did he possess. In the beginning he possessed a begging bowl for drinking water or sometimes to beg for food. Then one day he saw a dog drinking water from the river and immediately he threw away his bowl. He said, “If dogs can do without, why not I? If dogs are so intelligent that they can do without a bowl, I must be stupid to carry this bowl with me, it is a burden.”