Chapter 18: Catharsis and Meditation: Steps on The Path
You may not be aware of it, but the more repressed a man or a woman you are, the shallower is your breathing. A repressed man cannot take deep breaths. He is afraid: his breath cannot go deep down to his navel, it is just shallow. He takes it in and throws it out. It never goes to the very roots of his being. He is afraid of the roots; he is afraid of being total, because if he is total then he will have to release his repressions. He will have to act differently, he will not be able to control himself. He will be thrown into the deep river of existence. Existence will control him, he will not be able to control existence. To control, we control our breathing system.
Look at a child: he breathes differently. He is not yet cultured, civilized, that’s why. But the whole of society is working to cultivate him, and once he becomes aware of the society, his breathing will change.
The breathing changes at a particular moment. When the child becomes aware of his sex - or the society, his parents, his family makes him aware of his sex or her sex - the breathing changes. The breathing becomes shallow, because a deep breathing system massages your sex center from within. It excites the sex center, it goes deep down and helps the sex energy to move. Society, religions - the so-called religions - are all afraid of sex. Families, cultures, civilizations are all afraid of sex. So the child. Once the child is condemned for his sexuality, he will never again breathe naturally. His breathing will become shallow, because if his breath goes deep down, the sex center will be excited. He cannot allow his breathing to go so deep. That’s why everyone’s breathing is shallow.
So, the first step of the technique is just the opposite situation to this social structure: you have to breathe so deeply that the sex center is hit from within, and the sex center is hit so forcibly that the energy there is released.
The sex center can be hit in two ways. It can be hit from without: when you are attracted to the opposite sex, it is hit from without. Then the energy moves outward. If you take a deep breath and hit the center from within, the energy moves within - the same energy. Sex is both. It can move out, it can move in. It can move down, it can move up. You have both avenues; the energy just has to be released. An inner system exists in which sex energy can move. We have called it kundalini; kundalini is nothing but sex energy moving within.
So, for ten minutes you have to fight with civilization, fight with shallow breathing: chaotic breathing!
It will also do one more thing: it will release your body energy, your body electricity. They call it “bioelectricity.” Once the bioelectricity is released in the body you can use it as a vehicle to go beyond - to go beyond the body. We are afraid of the body, so we don’t allow it to be really alive. We have made it half-dead. Half-dead, it is controllable. If it is totally alive, it is not controllable.
We are afraid of it. The mind is always afraid, afraid of only one thing: what will happen if the mind is not in control? The mind can control only a dead body or a half-dead body. If the body is fully alive, the mind becomes afraid. The energy is so much that the mind is thrown off.