Chapter 9: Thou Hast Reaped
The spiritual search starts as a seeking for eternal bliss, as a seeking for eternal liberation, as a seeking for divine light and divine life. But you remain the center. In the beginning it is self-centered: whatsoever you are seeking you are seeking for yourself.
This self-centeredness will ultimately prove a barrier, because you cannot be in total ecstasy if you are self-centered. This self-centeredness is a deep hindrance. But in the beginning it is bound to be so, it is natural that one should start the search for oneself. There is no other way - you cannot start for someone else.
It has to be self-centered in the beginning, but it must not be so in the end. In the beginning it is okay. In the end it is dangerous. A point comes where your self-centeredness must cease, only then will your being flower into total bliss.
It is just like this: you take a breath in, you inhale - this is half a breath. Then you have to exhale - that is the other half. And both breaths - inhaling and exhaling - make it a circle, a total breath. If you think only to inhale, and you see no point in exhaling - “What is the use?” - you will die. Inhaling, which is necessary for life, will become dangerous for life if there is no exhaling. The breath must be released.
The same happens when you start receiving blissful moments, when you start receiving ecstatic moments, when the eternal starts pouring on you. The first thing is inhaling: you will inhale blissfulness, but then, exhale it. Otherwise, you will die of your own blissfulness. That blissfulness will become poisonous. Exhale it, distribute it, give it to others.
When you feel that you are filled with bliss, express it. Share it, don’t try to conserve it within you. Don’t force it, don’t make it a point that it is your own. Don’t monopolize it. Allow it to be shared with everyone. Really, celebrate it in such a way that the whole of existence shares it. Just as a flower blooms and the perfume spreads - the winds take it away, far away, to the far comers of the earth - allow your perfume, your bliss, to be taken far away from you, to be shared, to be shared by existence itself.
Why? - because then bliss has become total: both inhaling and exhaling. It becomes a circle. And the more you distribute it, the more you get. The more you throw it away, the more you find it, because now you are in contact with the infinite source.
Don’t be a miser. Don’t be a miser, otherwise you will kill the whole process. In the beginning it is okay to be self-centered, but when the bliss starts happening, it is dangerous.
This sutra is concerned with this exhaling:
Out of the silence that is peace a resonant voice shall arise. And this voice will say: “It is not well; thou hast reaped, now thou must sow.” And knowing this voice to be the silence itself thou wilt obey.