Chapter 6: The Paradox of Love
The first question:
Leaving soon for the West, I look back on the five months with you and think: I have been with Osho and I have not been with Osho. I have seen him and yet something remains unseen. I have heard him yet still I am deaf to his teaching. I leave with no feeling of security, no sense of certainty, nothing to rely on.
Have I missed you?
The question is from Swami Anand Subhuti. No, you have not missed me at all. People who leave me with certainty, security, they are the ones who have missed me.
I am not here to give you a dogma. A dogma makes one certain. I am not here to give you any promise for the future - any promise for the future makes one secure.
I am here simply to make you alert and aware; that is: to be herenow, with all the insecurity that life is, with all the uncertainty that life is, with all the danger that life is.
I know you come here seeking some certainty, some creed, some “ism,” somewhere to belong to, someone to rely upon. You come here out of your fear. You are searching a sort of beautiful imprisonment - so that you can live without any awareness.
I would make you more insecure, more uncertain, because that’s how life is, that’s how existence is. When there is more insecurity and more danger, the only way to respond to it is by awareness.
There are two possibilities. Either you close your eyes and become dogmatic - become a Christian or a Hindu or a Mohammedan - then you become like an ostrich. It doesn’t change life; it simply closes your eyes, it simply makes you stupid, it simply makes you unintelligent. In your unintelligence you feel secure - all idiots feel secure. In fact, only idiots feel secure. A really alive man will always feel insecure. What security can there be?