Chapter 13: Misery Is Nothing but Choice
Two men were trying to commit suicide. It was a rare phenomenon, that two men, by chance, reached the same rock from where they were going to jump into the river. They looked at each other and they said, “Strange. Have you also come here to commit suicide?”
They both said, “Yes.” So before committing suicide, there was a little conversation which changed the whole thing. The suicide never happened. They asked each other, “Why are you committing suicide?”
The one said, “I loved a woman and I could not get her because she loved somebody else, and I cannot live without her.” He described the woman, he told the name of the woman, and the other man was shocked.
He said, “What are you saying? I am committing suicide because of this woman! - because I got married to her, and I cannot live with her. You cannot live without her; I cannot live with her. And fate has played a great game to bring us both here on this rock. Now what shall we do? Now, committing suicide seems to be absolutely meaningless.”
But both were right. One could not live without her: he had missed her, he could not get her. The other got her.and soon everything fails - and we are responsible for it, and everything that was beautiful turns ugly. Something that looked very charming turns out to be very bitter.
The whole problem is if you can live without any choice. Whatever comes - enjoy it. When it goes, something else comes - enjoy it. Day is beautiful, but night is beautiful in its own way - why not enjoy both? And you can enjoy both only if you are not attached to one.
So only a choiceless person squeezes the juice of life to its totality. He is never miserable. Whatever happens he finds a way to enjoy it. And this is the whole art of life, to find a way to enjoy it. But the basic condition has to be remembered: be choiceless. And if you can be choiceless.. You can be choiceless only if you are alert, aware, watchful; otherwise you are going to fall into choice.
So choicelessness and awareness have different meanings in the dictionary. But not in existence - they have the same meaning. Either be choiceless or be aware. It is the same thing. Then you can enjoy everything. When success comes you can enjoy it; when failure comes you can enjoy it. When you are healthy, you can enjoy it; when you are sick you can enjoy it - because you don’t have any attachment with anything. You have not put your life into anything - your life is free movement, moving with time, moving with the wheel of existence, keeping pace, never lagging behind.