Chapter 4: Via Confusiva
And if I go on saying contradictory things every day, great courage is needed to listen to me, a great heart to contain, great love to understand me, and an intense desire to know, a passionate desire to know: “Whatsoever the cost, I am going to know. If all beliefs are to be destroyed and all systems have to be dropped and all religions to be thrown into the fire, I am ready. But I am going to know.”
When this passionate desire is there, you will meet with me. Then you will understand my contradictions. It is a device. It is creating a situation. I will not allow my people any possibility to believe in anything, not even in me. When all belief has gone, what is left? You are just like a mirror reflecting all the moods of life, reflecting all the climates. Summer comes and you are summer.and winter comes and you are winter.and day comes and you are day.and the night comes and you are night.
This I call totality. And to live in totality is to live in God.
All that I am saying is not a kind of doctrinizing - it is not at all. Its purpose us totally different. But the purpose is so different, that’s why such questions arise. When you go to listen to somebody else, he is there to propound a philosophy; he is explaining his philosophy to you. I am not explaining because I have no philosophy. I am utterly anti-philosophic.
When you go to a priest he is there to explain to you a certain dogma that he believes in; he is there to convert you. I am not here to convert you: I am here just to destroy you.
So remember: all statements are of the moment, just as all flowers are of the moment. Spring comes.and there are so many flowers. And then the spring is gone, and you never go to nature and say, “You look very contradictory. Where are the flowers? And how can you go on contradicting yourself in this way?”
Tao is contradictory. It has to be. That is the dialectics of life. But you never go to nature! If a cuckoo is calling and then suddenly it stops for no reason at all, you don’t go to the cuckoo and say “Why have you stopped? This is so contradictory! Calling so beautifully, and then falling into silence? Either be silent or go on calling - be consistent!” But you don’t say that.
In the rains the trees are green. In the summer the leaves will disappear and branches will be standing bare, naked, dry, against the sky. But you don’t go to the trees saying “How dare you be so contradictory!”
I am part of this Tao. I am not a philosopher. So all my statements are of the moment, for the moment. Remember it. There is no need to believe in them. Enjoy them! Relish them! While the flower is there, drink its beauty. It will be gone soon. Before it is gone, celebrate its being.
Celebrate me! Rather than believing in me, celebrate me. That is the difference - the difference of emphasis. Let my presence be a feast to you. It should not become a prison. It should not become a definition of your mind. It should not fill you with ideas but with dance and song.