Chapter 4: Real Love
Creativity means loving whatsoever you do - enjoying, celebrating it, as a gift of existence! Maybe nobody comes to know about it. Who is going to praise Paras for cleaning this floor? History will not take any account of it. Newspapers will not publish her name and pictures - but that is irrelevant. She enjoyed it. The value is intrinsic.
So if you are looking for fame and then you think you are creative - that if you become famous like Picasso, then you are creative - then you will miss. Then you are, in fact, not creative at all; you are a politician, ambitious. If fame happens, good. If it doesn’t happen, good. It should not be the consideration. The consideration should be that you are enjoying whatsoever you are doing. It is your love affair.
If your act is your love affair, then it becomes creative. Small things become great by the touch of love and delight.
The questioner asks: “I believed I was uncreative.” If you believe in that way, you will become uncreative because belief is not just belief. It opens doors, it closes doors. If you have a wrong belief, then that will hang around you as a closed door. If you believe that you are uncreative, you will become uncreative - because that belief will obstruct, continuously negate, all possibilities of flowing. It will not allow your energy to flow because you will continuously say, “I am uncreative.”
This has been taught to everybody. Very few people are accepted as creative: a few painters, a few poets - one in a million. This is foolish. Every human being is a born creator. Watch children and you will see: all children are creative. By and by, we destroy their creativity. By and by, we force wrong beliefs on them. By and by, we distract them. By and by, we make them more and more economical and political and ambitious.
When ambition enters, creativity disappears - because an ambitious man cannot be creative, because an ambitious man cannot love any activity for its own sake. While he is painting he is looking ahead: he is thinking of when he is going to get a Nobel Prize. When he is writing a novel, he is looking ahead. He is always in the future; and a creative person is always in the present.
We destroy creativity. Nobody is born uncreative, but we make ninety-nine percent of people uncreative.
But just throwing the responsibility on society is not going to help. You have to take your life in your own hands. You have to drop wrong conditionings. You have to drop wrong, hypnotic auto-suggestions that have been given to you in your childhood. Drop them. Purify yourself of all conditionings, and suddenly you will see you are creative.
To be and to be creative are synonymous. It is impossible to be and not to be creative. But that impossible thing has happened, that ugly phenomenon has happened, because all your creative sources have been plugged, blocked, destroyed, and your whole energy has been forced into some activity that the society thinks is going to pay.