Chapter 10: The Right Side Up
The first question
Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall.
Humpty Dumpty had a great fall.
All the king’s horses and all the king’s men,
Couldn’t put Humpty Dumpty together again.
It is not about Humpty Dumpty, It is about you. It is about humanity, the human mind: the fragmented human mind which is not a unity but has become a crowd - a crowd fighting amongst itself, a crowd continuously in war.
Look at your own mind and you will find the Humpty Dumpty there. There is no center in your mind. No master exists there, only servants. And each servant has the false idea that he is the master. And each servant has few moments when he is enthroned and he becomes the master and behaves like a master and promises like a master. And next moment his kingdom is gone. Another servant has taken over. And the other servant does not even know who the first servant was. He has never heard what he, the first, has been promising. How can he fulfill the promises?
When you love a woman or a man, you promise a thousand and one things which you cannot fulfill. You say, “I will be yours for ever and ever.” And the next moment, when the love has withered, you have not even any memory of it - what you had said. And if somebody reminds you, you will shrug your shoulders. You will say, “I must have said it in spite of myself. I must not have been in my right senses. I was intoxicated, hypnotized.” Or you will say, “Those words were only poetry. They don’t mean much.”
For one moment, when you are in love, the servant love, the emotion love, sits on the throne, has become the king. Next moment, when love is gone and the hate is enthroned, you are totally different. And this goes on, the wheel goes on moving.. Each moment, go within. You will find a new king is being enthroned and the old is being thrown out.
You only think that you are. While this state of the mind, this Humpty Dumpty state continues, you cannot say meaningfully that you are. You are a multitude.
It happened: a man came to Jesus and he wanted to become his disciple and follow him to the very end of his life. Jesus asked him, “First, please tell me: what is your name? Who are you?”
In that impact, in that shock, in that light, in that dazzling light of Jesus, the man became aware that he is not. Who will follow? Who will go with Jesus to the very end of life?