Chapter 7: No Yesterday, No Tomorrow, No Today
Buddha is talking about that when he says: The master is calm. He means that he has gone deep into his center, he has penetrated his being to the very core, and he has settled there; now he is at rest. All hustle and bustle has dropped, all running hither and thither has disappeared. Now he knows there is nowhere to go. He has arrived home, he has found his ultimate shelter, the ultimate refuge. Now he knows, “This is my shrine.” Sitting in that shrine he is absolutely calm. You cannot see where he is, but you can feel his calm. You can feel him like a cool breeze, you can feel him as a shower of silence. If you come close to him, suddenly you will be touched by something invisible. Your heart will start dancing. Not that he has done anything to you, but your mind can deceive you, your mind can start rationalizing.
Just the other day I was reading a manuscript. One woman came a few months ago, a friend of Pankaja and Savita. She came here just to see what had happened to Pankaja and Savita. Pankaja is a well-known novelist and has published beautiful novels. Suddenly she became a sannyasin and dropped her beautiful career. There were great possibilities: she could have become world-famous. She was on the way - she was becoming more and more known. Not only did she become a sannyasin, she never went back to England. Not only that - rumors must have reached England that now she functions in the ashram as a toilet cleaner. Her friend must have been puzzled - what had happened to her?
Then Savita also disappeared. She was also doing well in her profession. She was a therapist, earning a lot of money and moving ahead. And she also never returned to England.
Their friend came here just to see what was happening to these people - “They must have been hypnotized.” What else can the mind think? The simple explanation comes to the mind: “These people have been hypnotized.” Otherwise why should one leave one’s prosperous career, good livelihood - a career which was full of possibilities? Why should one suddenly leave? Either one has gone insane or one has become hypnotized.
She came here just to observe what is happening. Then she also became a sannyasin. But she escaped immediately - I gave her the name Kanan. She escaped. Now she writes a book about the whole experience and she says, “I don’t know what happened, why I became a sannyasin. There is something which pulls you. There is something intangible - one cannot figure it out, what it is exactly - but something like hypnosis.” She infers, “It may be in the eyes of this man or in the sound of his voice that one feels to become a sannyasin. Even I became a sannyasin, but then I became very much afraid: now I am being pulled the same way into this orange whirlpool in which Pankaja has disappeared, Savita has disappeared. It is better to go before I am too much in it and escape becomes impossible. I escaped. I dropped sannyas immediately because I was afraid - carrying this man’s mala and his picture around my neck was dangerous. Who knows what is hidden in it?”
Now, this woman thinks she is very clever, she thinks she is very rational, she thinks she has done the right thing. All that she has done is she has missed an opportunity which comes only once in a while; maybe for many lives she will not come across such a man again.