Chapter 13: When the Coin Disappears
The young monk crossed the stream, left the girl there, and started going towards the monastery. The monastery must have been one or two miles away. They walked. The old monk was so angry that he couldn’t speak. They walked in silence. Then they reached the door of the monastery, and when they were crossing the door the old monk stopped and said, “You have done wrong! It is prohibited! You should not have done this!”
The young monk was surprised. He said, “What? What are you saying? What have I done? I have remained completely silent. I have not even said a single word.”
The old monk said, “I am not talking about these two miles you have walked with me, I am talking about that beautiful young girl you were carrying in the stream.”
The young man said, “But I dropped the girl there and it seems you are still carrying her.”
If a mystic is really a mystic he cannot carry any division. He cannot say, “That is outside and this is inside,” because only ego can divide; ego is the boundary. Only mind can divide, no-mind cannot divide. Nothing is outside and nothing is in - the whole existence is advaita, one, nondual. Divisibility is not possible - it is oneness, it is a harmony, no boundaries exist. But if somebody goes on condemning..
There are monks, millions of monks all over the world in Hindu monasteries, in Christian monasteries, in Buddhist monasteries, who are afraid of the outside and who go on condemning it. That shows they are really interested, still interested in the outside; otherwise, why condemn? They have a deep unconscious lust for it, otherwise why condemn? Their condemnation shows they have some deep greed for it. When the greed really disappears how can there be condemnation? How can you hate the world? The hate is possible if love is somewhere hidden behind. Love and hate are not two things, love-hate is the phenomenon; they are two aspects of the same coin. You can change the aspects, from love you can come to hate. When you were in love with the world hate was hidden be-hind; now you hate the world, love is hidden behind - the other aspect remains.
A real mystic is one for whom the coin has disappeared; there is no hate, no love - no hate-love relationship. He simply exists without dividing. And there is no difficulty in it. If you try to make a harmony between the two then there will be difficulty, if you try somehow to synthesize then there will be difficulty. You cannot synthesize. This has been tried.
Reading the Upanishad you may come to realize, intellectually of course, that the out and the in are one, within and without are the same. If you realize intellectually then you will start trying to make a synthesis of the division. In the first place division is wrong; in the second place, to try to synthesize is doubly wrong, because synthesis means that you still think they are divided and somehow they have to be joined. Then it is very difficult and your synthesis will remain superficial, deep down the division will exist. You can only whitewash it, that’s all - you cannot do much.