Chapter 1: When the Shoe Fits
Because you will never make so absolute an effort, you will never be completely hopeless. And you can continue this half-hearted effort for many lives - that is what you have been doing in the past. You are not here for the first time before me. You are not here for the first time making some effort to realize the true, the real. You have done it many, many times, a million times in the past - but you are still hopeful.
Chuang Tzu says: It is better to drop effort in the beginning. It has to be dropped: either you drop it in the beginning or you will have to drop it at the end. But the end may not come soon! So there are two ways: either make a total effort, so total that all hope is shattered and you come to realize that nothing can be achieved through effort - there is not even a single small fragment still lingering somewhere in the unconscious, saying, “Do a little more and this will be achieved.” Either make a total effort then it drops by itself, or don’t make any effort at all. Just understand the whole thing. Don’t move into it at all.
Remember one thing: you cannot come out of it if it is incomplete; once entered, it has to be completed. Because the mind has a tendency to complete everything - not only the human mind, even the animal mind. If you draw a half circle, incomplete, and a gorilla comes and sees it and some chalk is there, he will immediately complete it.
Your mind as such has a tendency to complete - anything incomplete gives you tension. If you wanted to laugh and you could not, there will be tension. If you wanted to cry and could not, there will be tension. If you wanted to be angry and could not, there will be tension. That’s why you have become one long illness; everything has been left incomplete! You have never laughed totally, you have never cried totally, you have never been angry totally, you have never hated totally, you have never loved totally. Nothing has been done totally - everything is incomplete. Nothing is total. It lingers on, and then there are always many things on your mind. That is why you are so ill at ease; you can never feel at home.
Chuang Tzu says: It is better not to start because once you start it has to be completed. Understand, and don’t move in a vicious circle. That is why I say that Chuang Tzu is a rare flowering, rarer than a Buddha or a Jesus, because he achieved simply by understanding.
There is no method, no meditation for Chuang Tzu. He says: Simply understand the ‘facticity’ of it. You are born. What effort have you made to be born? You grow. What effort have you made to grow? You breathe. What effort have you made to breathe? Everything moves on its own, so why bother? Let life flow on its own; then you will be in a let-go. Don’t struggle and don’t try to move upstream, don’t even try to swim; just float with the current and let the current lead you wherever it leads. Be a white cloud moving in the sky - no goal, going nowhere, just floating. That floating is the ultimate flowering.