Chapter 6: Being Total
If one knows how to die, death is transformed. You are not destroyed! You destroy death when you know how to die - smiling, a laughter in your being, welcoming. Death is not there; it is only the divine, your beloved coming to you. It is a misunderstanding when you call it death. Death, as such, exists not: one simply changes the body and the journey continues. Death, at the most, is an overnight stay in a caravanserai. In the morning, you go again. Life continues.
Death is a rest. Death is not death at all - you are not destroyed. Life cannot be destroyed! Life is eternal, death is just an episode in it. And death is not against life either, it is complementary to life. It is a rest, it is a pause. You have been singing so much, you need a little rest - your throat is tired, your vocal-chords are tired. You have been dancing so much; for seventy, eighty years you have been dancing - your legs are tired, you would like to have a little relaxation. Death allows you that relaxation. You have been laughing and living and loving - death gives you a chance to revive again. Death vitalizes you, it does not destroy. Death is non-existential. It is just like deep sleep - a little longer, a little deeper, but just like sleep.
And if you have loved, then your love remains. If you have meditated, your meditation remains. Whatsoever you have gained in the inner world remains, whatsoever you have been hoarding in the outer world is gone. Death can only take that which you possess. Death cannot take that which you are. Money you possess; it will be taken. Power you possess; it will be taken away. Meditation you don’t possess. It is not a thing to be possessed by you, it is a quality of your being. It is you! Love you don’t possess; it is not a possession, it is being. The interior wealth will go with you, the exterior wealth will be taken away. Because the exterior belongs to the body, the body will fall, and the whole exterior world will fall with it and will disappear with it.
Shefali can go happily. When death comes, she can go dancing, praying. She will find the beloved in it.
Her fear is also true: she’s afraid that she is not yet egoless. That is the beginning of egolessness - to feel “I am not yet egoless.” The egoists never feel that; they think they are egoless. It is the feeling that “I am still with the ego” that gives the first hint, the first ray of the morning sun.
She says, “I’m not yet enlightened.” That is the beginning of enlightenment. That is the first feel, the first experience - the “I” is disappearing. When the “I” has disappeared completely, enlightenment happens.
My feeling about Shefali is that her death will become her satori, her samadhi. I have been watching closely her progress towards inner being - just a very, very small distance is left. If she can accept death totally, that distance will be destroyed, she will take the quantum leap.