Chapter 10: The Right Side Up
Emptiness, when it is negative, is never at ease with itself. It is thinking of the future. It is hoping that in the future this emptiness will not be there “and I will be fulfilled.”
Emptiness, when it is negative, creates future. Emptiness, when it is positive, has no future to it. There is nothing next to it. You have arrived home. There is nothing next to it. It is enough unto itself.
This type of emptiness, negative emptiness, has to be dropped. It has not come out of meditation; it is coming out of life’s frustrations. It has not come out of love; it is coming out of the frustration that lust gives to everybody. It is a by-product of failure.
Positive emptiness happens when you are in a deep inner contentment. Negative emptiness happens when you are deeply frustrated. Your life seems meaningless. Whatsoever you do, you go on doing like a robot, mechanically. But there is no romance in it. You drag your life; there is no dance to it. You cannot sing, you cannot be happy, you cannot celebrate.
Drop this type of emptiness! And this type of emptiness can be dropped only if you try to change the negativity towards positivity. Meditate more, and meditate without expectations. Love more, and love without expectations.
If you expect anything out of love or meditation, you will get only frustration, and negative emptiness will happen. If you love for the sheer joy of it, if you meditate for the sheer delight of it and you don’t have any result in mind - you are not goal-oriented - then there comes an emptiness which is positive. You start feeling full. You start feeling, for the first time, that you are. Being is felt, and that being is tremendously beautiful, blissful. It is sat chi anand: it is existence, it is consciousness, it is bliss.
Always remember to beware of the negative and move from the negative towards the positive. And when the positive happens, then stay with it. Then allow it. Open yourself to it totally, be vulnerable to it - with all your doors and windows open so that it can come from everywhere and it can drown you completely. Then it becomes a resurrection.
The fourth question:
What is divine will, and how does it act through the surrendered individual?
This is an intellectual question. Futile. Rot. It arises in the intellect because the intellect cannot understand. Remember always: intellect is not intelligence. You cannot find a more stupid thing than intellect.