Chapter 20: Nobody Can Expect Consistency from Me
To stand alone, you lose the coziness of the crowd. To stand alone, you lose the faith of the fanatic. To stand alone, you lose the authority of a long tradition.
But if you recognize your thirst, you have to stand alone and you have to walk alone, because the truth is never found by the crowd. It is never found on the superhighway. There are not even footpaths which lead to it. As you search for it, as you walk, you create your footpath yourself. It is a very strange phenomenon. You don’t have a footpath ready-made, waiting for you, which will lead you to the truth, to the temple; you have to walk, and just by walking you have to create it.
Each step is full of hesitation, fear, trembling. You cannot be certain because you don’t have any map - there exists none. You don’t know where you are moving - are you going towards the truth or away from it?
That’s why I say it needs guts, courage. It needs the courage of the gambler who can stake everything, not knowing what is going to be the result. He may lose all or he may win all. All or none - that is the choice facing you on each step, every moment. One who accepts this situation becomes more and more integrated, becomes more and more independent, becomes more and more together, centered, rooted.
And as all these tremendously significant things are happening to his being, he finds a new warmth which comes from his own innermost source, a new coziness which is not dependent on the crowd, on anybody else. He finds a new clarity, a new vision, new eyes to see.
Things become easier as he proceeds, but the first step is the most difficult. To go out of the crowd is a drastic step.
The world has lived for millennia in the same rut - being born in misery, living in misery, dying in misery.at the most a few moments here and there of entertainment, not of ecstasy.
Entertainment is not ecstasy, entertainment is just an opium. You become so absorbed in looking at something - a movie, a circus, a football match, a boxing competition - that you forget yourself and your pains. Entertainment is a way of forgetting yourself and your misery. It can be only for a few moments; again you will be back. And your pain is not going to forgive you so soon. You deceived it - it is going to be revengeful. So after each entertainment you will fall into a deeper ditch of darkness and misery, just to compensate.
But this has been the way the world has lived. Only once in a while somebody has rebelled against this whole order. It needs tremendous intelligence.
I am going on a world tour..
I am aware of my people who have already taken the first step; they have already separated themselves from the crowd. They are no longer Christians, no longer Jews, no longer Hindus. They have done a great job, something rare, something unique - never done by such a vast number of people before.