Chapter 16: A Trusting Heart
Even Buddha cannot convince you through words. To convince you, to create trust in you for the jump, even Buddha has to first prepare you through silence. He makes you silent, calm and quiet before he starts speaking to you; he cannot prove it through words. That is why Buddha was very clear on this point: he would never just answer people’s questions. He would say, “Before I answer, you will have to learn to be silent. Sit silently near me for two or three years and when your silence is total, then I will answer you.” But it always happened that when a person’s silence was total he would never ask any questions - Buddha had answered him in that silence.
What cannot be said with words can be transmitted in silence. Because silence does not enter the mind, it goes straight to the heart. Words just collide with the head and come back again. Silence, the stream of life flowing through silence, enters your heart without any obstacles. At the most, words are helpful to convince you to be silent; that is their utility. Words can do this much: they can help you to become wordless. Then the work of words is over.
But the divine cannot be attained through words.
“.through mind or through the eyes.”
Mind thinks; the process of thinking is called mind. When you think, ponder, contemplate, that process is called mind. But you have to understand this aspect of thinking clearly: you can think only about that which you already know. How can you think about something that you don’t know? You can think only about the known. How can you think about that which is not known to you? Thinking is like chewing: as cows and buffaloes eat grass and then go on chewing the cud, so mind also goes on chewing over thoughts. It goes on thinking about that which has already been fed into it, that which is already known to it.
Mind has no relationship with the unknown. It is also not possible because how can you think about something which you don’t know? In a sense thinking is repetition: it is stale, it is never fresh. Thinking is always returning to the past. Thinking is a repetition of memory: whatsoever is in memory is re-chewed. But the divine is unknown, you don’t know any-thing about it - how can you think about it? That is why the divine can never have any relation with the mind. As long as the mind is there you are disconnected from the divine; the moment the mind is dissolved you become one with the divine. Mind is the wall, the barrier between you and the ultimate reality.
People come and tell me, “We don’t feel like meditating. Our minds don’t feel like meditating.” I tell them, “Mind will never want to meditate because mind is the enemy of meditation. Mind will find many excuses not to meditate. It will say, ‘What are you doing? This is madness! What will happen to you by being silent? If you don’t think then you will be lost! It is not right to get caught in these things - protect your rationality, your intellect’.”
Mind will give a thousand-and-one reasons for not meditating because meditation is the death of mind. Mind dies when you meditate so the mind will try to protect itself in all possible ways. Your mind also does the same thing: it finds so many excuses not to meditate. Sometimes these excuses are so trivial and insignificant that one wonders how they could stop a person from meditating.