Chapter 3: In Search of a Lost Treasure
He wrote these sutras after his enlightenment, but before his becoming a master. He himself asked the question. It is a preparation for himself - the homework. He asked the question and he himself answers it, trying to see whether he will be able to answer the questions which are bound to arise when he declares his enlightenment.
One of the most difficult things is: what is nirvana? The word nirvana has a very special meaning to it. No other religion in the world has ever dared to think of such a thing. Nirvana literally means blowing away the flame. You have a candle, you blow away the flame - now where you can find that flame again? Is it possible to find that flame again in this vast universe? It has gone into the oceanic existence, become one with it. There is no way to find it.
Buddha used “nirvana” as the ultimate state when your individual consciousness disappears into the universal consciousness. It is just like blowing away a flame. No more will you be heard; no more will you be; only existence will be there. You will walk, and it will be existence who will be walking within you. You will talk, and it will be existence who will be talking through you. You will become just a hollow bamboo, and existence can make a flute out of you.
The words or the silences are all coming from the cosmic sources. The enlightened masters have danced, have sung, have written poetries, have done all kinds of creative work, but not as themselves. They are allowing existence to use them as instruments of the cosmic soul. They will not do anything on their own.
I am reminded of an English poet, Coleridge..
After his death, forty thousand incomplete poems were found in his house. His friends were aware all his life, and they insisted, “Why don’t you complete a poem which is so beautiful? Just two lines more and it will be completed - or sometimes one line more and it will be completed.”
But according to me, Coleridge was authentically a mystic poet. He simply said, “I never write anything, I only allow existence. At this point existence stopped, what can I do? I cannot manage to complete the poem. If existence wants to complete it some day, it will be completed; if not, it is not my concern.”
He completed only seven poems, but even seven poems have made him one of the greatest poets that has ever lived on the earth. His poems give the sense that they are coming from beyond. He is just a receiving center, he is not a composer, he is not writing them. He is just in the hands of existence.perhaps a fountain pen, but the hands are cosmic.
He was courageous enough. It needed immense courage to see thousands of poems gathering which could be completed - and he was capable of completing them. But he tried a few times and he found out that the one line he composed was dead, and the other lines which had flown through him, had a life of their own - they had a heartbeat.