Chapter 5: Existence Still Hopes
Love also represents the innermost core of existence itself. Existence is not indifferent to you, it is not detached. It is committed to you, it cares for you. It may not care the way you want to be cared for, but it still cares in its own way. And what you expect may not really be your need, it may be just the opposite.
Existence really fulfills your needs - not your likes and dislikes, not your wants, but your real, true, authentic needs are always taken care of. Existence cannot be indifferent to you, you are part of it. To be indifferent to you will mean it is indifferent to itself - that is impossible. Existence would have disappeared long ago if it was so.
We are its waves. We are flowers of this tree of life and existence. Your desire to be loved, and your desire to love, is your suprememost desire. It must show something of your basic fundamental nature, it must represent your innermost core - it does represent it.
Once you understand love as godliness, your whole vision of life will change. Then you will not go to worship in a temple or a church or in a mosque, then love will be your worship. And then you will not be afraid of existence, because it cares for you. Fear will disappear. You will not be afraid even of death, because death can take away only that which is not needed any more, but it cannot destroy you.
Existence is your mother, it cannot allow destruction. Nothing is ever destroyed. Now even physicists agree with it: nothing is ever destroyed and nothing is ever created. Not even a small grain of sand can be destroyed or created. Existence contains the same quantity of matter, life, love energy as it has contained always, as it will contain always.
Martin Luther has said a tremendously significant thing. He says “Pecca fortiter, sin boldly.” It is strange. The statement seems to be unbelievable - a man like Luther saying, “Sin boldly.” But the meaning is really worth pondering over. He is saying: Love permeates the whole of existence, so don’t be afraid. Even if you are in sin, be boldly in it, because existence is always ready to forgive, it is forgiving. Love always is forgiving. He does not mean that you should go and sin. He is simply saying your greatest sin is nothing compared to the forgiveness that goes on flowing from existence towards you.
Just the other day, somebody asked me, “I am a great sinner. Can I also realize God?”
You cannot be that great a sinner. You cannot be so fallen that God’s hand cannot reach you, you cannot be so weighted and burdened by sin that God cannot uplift you. The gravitation of sin cannot be more than the grace of God.
This is one of the fundamentals of Sufism, that God is unconditionally forgiving - he has to be, because his nature is love. Love is his reality. It is not that love forgives, love is forgiveness. There is no question of forgiving you. The question arises only if God has already becomes angry with you. Only then does the question of forgiving arise.