Chapter 6: Strive to No Goals
The boy said, “But there was great difficulty. It is raining outside you see, and the road is so slippery with mud that I would move one foot towards the school, and I would slip two backwards. It is so slippery that the faster I tried to move, the slower I was reaching. In fact I was going in the opposite direction: one foot ahead and two feet thrown back.”
The teacher said, “You are very clever, but then how did you reach?”
The boy said, “I just started walking towards my home, that’s how.”
You are also on a slippery road where the faster you go, the slower is the speed - because you are going away. If somebody looks at the goal, then you are going astray. Your speed is dangerous, it is against the goal, because no speed is needed. You have simply to just stop and look.
People come to me and they ask, “When will we get enlightenment? When?” If I say, “Now,” they can’t believe me. And I tell you, now. If you miss this now, then another now - but always now. There is no other time.
Whenever it happens it will happen in the now, and whenever it happens it will happen in the here. Here and now are not two words, just like time and space are not two words. Einstein used a new term: “spatiotime.” He made one word out of two, spatiotime, because he found scientifically that time is nothing but the fourth dimension of space, so no need to use two words.
And here and now are also not two words. Thousands of years before Einstein, mystics like Sosan were aware of that. It is “now-here.” These two words are to be joined, they are one, because now is nothing but a dimension of here - the fourth dimension. Now-here is one word.
And whenever it happens it will happen in the now-here. It can happen just now, no need to wait! But you are irresolute and fearful - that creates the problem.
What is the meaning of being fearful? What is the situation inside when you are fearful? - you want it, and you also don’t want it. This is the situation of a fearful mind: he wants to go and he doesn’t want to go because he is afraid. He would like to but he is not certain, irresolute.
Jesus always used the word fear, many times, against faith. He never used disbelief, distrust against faith; he would always use the word fear against faith. He said those who are not afraid, they become faithful, because faith is resolution. Faith is a decision, a total decision. You move totally in it, it is a trust, with nothing to be held back, unconditional. It cannot be taken back. If you have moved totally, who will take it back?
Faith is absolute. If you go into it, you go into it. You cannot come out of it - who will come out of it? There is nobody standing behind who can pull you back. It is a jump into the abyss, and Jesus is exactly right to make fear the antonym of faith. Nobody has ever done that. But he is absolutely right, because he is not concerned with the outer language, he is concerned with the language of the inner being.