Chapter 4: The Rebel Is Utterly Innocent
Now why is Indivar disturbed? Because his own heart does not know love, his own heart does not know trust, his own heart is dry. He has not known the joy of tears. Seeing others overwhelmed with joy and gratitude, he feels inferior. He is inferior. To hide his inferiority, he finds all kinds of logic - that it is surrender, that this should not be so, that people are imitating each other. But you are not the guardian of people. Who has given you that responsibility? You are only responsible for yourself.
A rebel lives his life in total freedom; he does not allow anybody to interfere in it, and he never interferes in anybody else’s life. I have not told anybody to do anything. If something happens to them, I cannot prevent them because that will be interfering, that will be dictating.
Just a few days ago we inaugurated a beautiful fountain in the memory of J. Krishnamurti. I have received a few letters from the followers of J. Krishnamurti, saying that before dying he said, “Don’t make any memorial of me.” Now it raises many questions. First it means he wanted to dominate others, even after his death. Whether you say, “Make a beautiful memorial for me,” or you say, “Do not make a memorial for me,” it does not make any difference. It is the same. You are trying to control the future - after your death too.
But nobody will see the implication of it. Why should he be concerned with what happens after his death? And what can he do? Living people have been going against me in the courts. Do you think now J. Krishnamurti is going to be in the court against me, saying that I have been hurting his feelings?
And secondly, I laughed when I heard about those letters because a few of the writers of those letters are well known to me. They have been following J. Krishnamurti for forty and fifty years; they are as old as he was. But they show by their letters that they have not understood him. J. Krishnamurti had said his whole life, “Don’t follow me!” Now if he says, “Don’t make memorials when I am dead,” then don’t follow him - make memorials! That is a simple conclusion - if you understand him.
J. Krishnamurti never accepted anybody as his follower, and now these people are writing letters as followers of J. Krishnamurti. He denied continually, for almost seventy years, saying, “Nobody is my follower.” Listening to him, reading him, having interviews with him - these people still have the wrong attitude: they think they are followers of J. Krishnamurti. But that is their business; I have no objection. That is something between them and J. Krishnamurti.
But one thing! And how many other things have they followed from J. Krishnamurti? Only one thing - not to make a memorial. In seventy years’ teaching time, how many things have they followed? I know them; they have not followed a single thing. They have not even followed this most fundamental approach of J. Krishnamurti, “Nobody is my follower.” They have followed nothing.
But this is very comfortable - not to make a memorial - and, particularly for Indians, it is very comfortable and consolatory that so much money is saved. “The poor fellow himself said it was good; now we can say that we cannot go against his will.” But in what other matters have you ever followed his will?