Chapter 1: I Am Not a Man Who Plans
Author of Das Rote Tuch, Germany
Looking back on the development of the neo-sannyas movement, it appears to me very well planned, just like a seed which has the whole plan of the tree inside itself. In which state of growth is the tree of your religion now?
It is true, but nobody has planned it. Looking back, you can see all the stages from the seed to the flower, but if you look at the seed you will not be able to predict what is going to happen.
The seed is completely closed. It has potential, but we don’t know whether the seed will fall into the right soil, or will fall on a stone and will never grow, or may be eaten by animals, destroyed by children. Nobody knows what is going to happen in the future. The future remains open; unknown, unknowable.
And that’s how sannyas has grown. I have never planned it - not the way an architect plans how a building is going to be. A building is a construction, it is not a growth. A construction can be planned, but growth is life. It is an opening into many dimensions; what root, what dimension it will take, nobody knows.
I have functioned continuously from this innocence. I am not a man who plans; I trust existence so much, and planning means distrust. I know that existence has helped me up to this moment, and I have never done anything. The next moment also will be taken care of. To me, this trust is real religion, not believing in Jesus Christ or God, or believing in the Bible or the Koran.
No, living a life of spontaneity without any plan, trusting whatsoever happens, is the right thing. And when I say “whatsoever,” I mean whatsoever - because we don’t have any plan, so we cannot have any judgment of what happens. If we have a plan, then there is every possibility of disappointment.
Existence has no obligation to follow my plan. That’s why religious people have been saying through the centuries, “Man proposes and God disposes.” There is no God to dispose; we have disposed of God himself. But if man proposes, he is bound to come to a point where there will be disappointment.