Chapter 68: Energy Enjoys Itself Playing
Once this deepens in your consciousness - and it will deepen if you start playing with meditation - it will be a good beginning. Because in meditation you alone are the player. That’s why it can be a good beginning, the right beginning. You are alone playing the game so you can forget society and society will not come to interfere. This is a solo game, meditation, a solo game. You play alone.
So whatsoever you want to play you can play, but forget the ends. If there are ends you have also turned meditation into a work. Just play it, enjoy it, love it. It is beautiful in itself. There is no need for any other end to beautify it.
People come to me and they say, “We are enjoying meditation, but tell us what is going to happen. What will be the end result?” I tell them, “This IS the end result - that you are enjoying. Enjoy it more!” But they go on insisting, “Tell us something about it. What will be the end result? Where will we reach to?” They are not concerned at all where they are: they are always concerned with where they will reach to. The mind cannot exist in the present so it goes on giving you excuses to move into the future. These excuses are the desires. So if you desire to be a god, to be a buddha, your meditation will be a sort of desire, and then it is not meditation. If you don’t desire anything, you just enjoy being here, you just celebrate being alive, you enjoy the inner energy playing in imagination, in visions, in emptiness, whatsoever you choose, and you are totally one with this moment of enjoyment, then it is meditation. Then there is no desire, and, with no desire, the world drops. With a non-desiring, playful mind you have entered. You are already in it.
But this has to be hammered into your mind again and again because your mind is a transformer. It transforms anything into a desire - anything - it can transform even non-desire into a desire. People come to me and they say, “How does one achieve the state of non-desire?” How to achieve the state of non-desire? Now this has become the desire. Your mind has a transforming mechanism: whatsoever you put in will come out as a desire.
Be alert of this and enjoy moments so much that no energy is left to move into the future. Then, any day, any moment, it will happen to you that suddenly all the darkness falls; suddenly all that is a burden disappears; suddenly you are freed. But the emphasis should be more and more on play, the present, here and now - and less and less on the future.
The second question:
Yesterday, you said that mind is reality, dream is reality. Then why do gurus like you take the trouble to teach us that mind is the only barrier, mind is the only obstacle?
Gurus and disciples are mind phenomena. Because your mind needs gurus, there are gurus. You create them. Because you want to be taught, there are teachers. You need them.