Chapter 12: This Is Not Kaaba
The foolish person, listening to me, will become more knowledgeable. The wise person will drop all his knowledgeability and will become ignorant; and the foolish person will accumulate knowledge and will become more knowledgeable - it depends on you. And remember, just by understanding a thing intellectually - of course, if you have understood totally then there is no problem, then in that very understanding the problem disappears - if the problem remains, it simply shows that it is only an intellectual understanding. Logically you feel “I am right,” but who lives through logic? Nobody lives through logic. Logically you know anger is wrong, but when somebody insults you then all logic is forgotten, then the anger comes up. Each time you have fallen in love, you have gone beyond logic. And whenever a love disappears, you again decide: “It was foolish, it was madness. Never again! The frustration of it, the hell of it!” - you are tired of it. But within only a few days you forget all about that frustration, the hell that the other had created. Again a face starts looking beautiful, again a person starts looking heavenly, again you are falling in the trap - logic is forgotten. Who lives according to logic?
When you understand me logically it is not going to help. Logic never transforms anybody because you are dominated by the unconscious, not by the conscious. When you understand that knowledge is futile, that is just on the surface.. But deep down knowledge is a great investment. It is through knowledge that you are important, it is through knowledge that you are somebody, it is through knowledge that your ego is fulfilled and strengthened, it is through knowledge that you can feel superior - superior to those who don’t know - it is through knowledge that you have the upper hand. These are all the investments in it. Unless you drop these investments, knowledge is not going to be dropped.
And then, habits die hard. And the habit of knowledge is the ancient-most habit that man has carried; it is the most dangerous habit. Smoking or drinking or gambling are nothing. This is the most dangerous habit because it prevents you from seeing, it prevents you from coming into deep contact with reality. It is the greatest barrier: the China Wall. But habits die hard, remember it, and it is the longest, the ancient-most, habit.
An old gambler was talking to his son as he lay dying.
“Son, promise me you’ll never touch a card. Above all, never play blackjack. It’s a game that will cost you a fortune, waste your time, ruin your health and cause you untold moments of anguish and pain. Do you promise me, here on my dying bed, with the merciful angel of death hovering about and Almighty God as a witness, that you will never play blackjack, that you will never touch playing cards?”
“Yes, Father,” muttered the pious son.
“And remember, shouted the old gambler, “if you must play, always be sure to take the bank!”
Old habit: a gambler is a gambler. What he is saying does not matter much, deep inside he is the old gambler. All this great sermon against gambling is just superficial. Deep down, from the unconscious, arises this statement: “And remember,” shouted the old gambler, “if you must play, always be sure to take the bank!”
You listen to me, you listen, to these murmurs, whisperings, of Tao. For a moment a small light burns on the surface of your consciousness, it lights a little, but it is a very flickering light - it comes and it goes. In that flickering light, for a moment, you seem to understand. But from your deep unconscious will come the great storm and will blow out this small light very easily.
I have heard about a great gentleman..