Chapter 25: We Are Ancient Pilgrims
The Christian will talk to Christ. In his lonely cave he creates Christ, just so that he can have somebody there, just so that he is not lonely. And many methods have been developed by these monks: how to hallucinate. If you fast, hallucination becomes easier. The body becomes weaker, you start losing control over reality. The more weak the body is, the more is the possibility of hallucination. People in fever, illness, start hallucinating. The exact same rule: torture the body, weaken the body, starve the body and hallucinations will be easier.
You can have Jesus Christ or Krishna or Gautama Buddha - great company you can have, but it is all imagination. The Hindu will never see Christ, and the Christian will never see Krishna. You will see only whatsoever you believe in, you will see only whatsoever you create by your belief; it is a projection.
It will be difficult to project it in the marketplace, because there will be so many people who will deny your projection. They will take you to the psychiatrist, they will think you have gone nuts. If you start talking to Christ in the marketplace you will end up in some hospital.
But in the Himalayan cave there is nobody else, you are free to create whatsoever you want to your heart’s content. Loneliness is such a misery that one starts believing in one’s own hallucinations, to have company. But this is madness.
On the one hand is the person, the worldly person, who has tried to find love without freedom and has failed. His life is nothing but a long, long slavery to many, many people, to many, many things. He is chained, body, mind, soul; he is not free to have even a slight movement. That is one failure: the majority of humanity is caught in that extreme.
A few escape from the world; seeing the misery, they start searching for the other extreme - freedom, moksha, nirvana. But they become neurotic, psychotic, they start living in their own dreams. Loneliness is so much that one has to create something to be with.
Both these extreme efforts have failed. Hence humanity stands on a crossroads. Where to go? The past has utterly failed. All the efforts that we have done in the past proved wrong, led to cul-de-sacs. Now where to go, what to do?
Atisha has an important message to deliver to you, and that is the message of all the buddhas, of all the enlightened people of the world. They say: Love and freedom are not two separate things, you cannot choose. Either you will have to have both, or you will have to drop both. But you cannot choose, you cannot have one.
Love is the circumference, freedom is the center.
One has to grow in such delicate balance, where love and freedom can bloom together. And they can, because in a few rare individuals it has happened. And if it has happened to only a single individual in the whole history, it can happen to every human being. It is your potential, your birthright.
Meditation is the balance. Meditation is the bird with two wings: freedom and love.
My effort here in this buddhafield is to give you both the wings together: be loving and be free, be loving and be nonpossessive. Be free but don’t become cold; remain warm - warm with love.