Chapter 4: Truth Is Not a Goal
You are in love with a woman or with a man and immediately a thousand and one conditions are there: “I will love you only if this condition is fulfilled - that you will not look at anybody with loving eyes. Then I will love you.” Now, nobody can promise that, and even if one promises it, nobody can keep it. You are asking something absurd. If some beautiful man passes by, how is your woman not going to look at him - how? She may not look, she may close her eyes, she may look somewhere else - but she has looked at him. In that moment she had moved, her heart had missed a beat.
How are you going to avoid it? There are so many beautiful women in the world; you can at the most pretend. All conditions create pretensions, because all conditions are unnatural.
A man who really wants to live, lives unconditionally; he doesn’t make requirements of life. He says, “Whatsoever comes I am going to dance. Whatsoever the situation, I am going to dance. I am going to live it, I am going into it with my whole being.” Then the fear of life will disappear: lived there is no fear; unlived life creates fear.
Let me repeat: because you are not living life, that’s why the fear comes, and life is disappearing, and you are wasting a great opportunity. The opportunity may never come again, or even if it comes, will you be able to do something else? You will repeat the same thing: you have been repeating - this is not the only life that you have come to, you have been through many lives. You have lived for eternity in a thousand and one forms, and you have always missed. You have missed because of your conditions.
See to it that conditions are dropped, that you love for the sheer joy of love and that you live for the sheer joy of living. Be a hedonist, be an Epicurean. To me, Epicurus was on the right track towards the Garden of Eden - his commune was called “The Garden.” He has been immensely misunderstood. I know that there is something even beyond Epicurus, but it goes through him. You will have to pass through the Garden of Epicurus, only then will you reach the shrine of Buddha - otherwise not.
Hedonism is beautiful - eat, drink, and be merry - but it is not the whole story, it is just the beginning, the porch of the palace. There is far more, far beyond it, far more to life; but you have to pass through the porch. Your so-called religions have taught you to be anti-hedonistic - that’s why the fear. Your religions have taught you misery; they talk of bliss but they create misery, they go on preaching to you how to be blissful, but whatsoever they do and whatsoever methods they supply are self-destructive. They don’t allow you to be really blissful.
Be happy here, and remember, I am not saying this is all to life. Epicurus is the beginning of a buddha: you can stop at Epicurus, then you will miss much, but it is better to stop at Epicurus than not to enter into Epicurus at all, because then you miss all. I teach you spiritual hedonism - that is my message to you. First be hedonistic as far as the first body is concerned, then be hedonistic as far as the second body is concerned, and then be hedonistic totally in the third body.