Chapter 10: Toward Nothingness
Now that baby was the only virgin in the whole church.but, of course, a baby cannot get up by herself.
When somebody brings a child to me for sannyas, many times I say no. I say wait a little. Unless I feel that the child is ready - of course, the child cannot come by himself - unless I feel the child has moved in his past lives closer and closer and closer in his search, and he is ready.otherwise, I say wait, let the child grow a little.
Not only to sleeping babies - sometimes I have given sannyas to babies in the womb. If I feel.and to feel a child is very simple. It is very difficult to feel you, because you are broadcasting such confusing statements about yourself - from your left side something else, from your right side something else, from your back something else, from your front something else. You are contradictory. You go on broadcasting contradictory vibes. It is very difficult to make certain of where you are, what you want. And the complexity is even doubled, because one moment you are one thing, another moment you are another thing. Like a chameleon you go on changing your colors.
A baby is simple, has one taste, has one color. If I feel, if the vibes show me, that it will fit with his life pattern in the future, only then do I give sannyas.
And one thing more has to be understood: my sannyas is not in any way imposing something on you. It is simply conferring freedom on you. By giving you sannyas I am not giving you an ideology - I am just giving you courage to become free from all ideologies. By giving sannyas to you I am not giving you a certain religion - Hindu, Mohammedan, Christian - I am simply giving you courage to be an individual, to be a unique individual.
My sannyas is not a character that will confine you. My sannyas is an awareness that will give you more and more freedom. And if one day you feel that my sannyas is making a prison for you, then drop out of it - that will be the true sannyas spirit. But never allow it to become an imprisonment.
The child will grow. One day, if he feels that it is not for him, he is free. There is no legal bondage in it. He can simply drop out of it. If he feels in tune with it, he can go deeper into it.
I have no ideology to teach to you. I am not a teacher at all. That’s the difference between a teacher and a master. A teacher has an ideology; he tries to condition your mind; he wants to give you certain concepts. A master simply wants to uncondition your mind. He does not want to give you any concepts. He wants to give you clarity of vision.