Chapter 2: I Teach Only Awareness
That’s why simple things look difficult for the ego and difficult things look simple. If I tell you that the path is very, very arduous, you will be ready to follow it immediately. If I say it is very simple, it is so simple that you need not even take a single step, it is so simple that you need not go anywhere, just sit in your house and it will happen, you will simply forget about me and what I am saying. You will simply move away from me as if you have not listened at all. You will go to somebody who is talking some nonsense and creating some difficulty for you. That’s why suppression came into existence, because to suppress is the most difficult thing in the world - almost impossible because it never succeeds, it is always a failure.
How can you suppress a part of your being with another part? It is just like trying to win by your right hand trying to defeat your left hand. You can pretend, after a little activity you can pretend that the right is on top and the left is suppressed, but do you think it is suppressed or it is conquered? How can you conquer a part of your own being with another part? - just pretensions. If you suppress sex, the brahmacharya will be a pretension, a hypocrisy. It is just the right hand laying and waiting there, helping you to pretend. Any moment it can upset everything again - and it will upset. That which you have conquered has to be conquered again and again, because it is never a real victory. And, in the end, you find that you have been fighting your whole life and nothing has been achieved. In fact, only you will be defeated, nothing else. Your whole life will be defeated.
No master who knows, no master who is enlightened, has ever preached suppression. But they have preached something which can look like suppression to people who don’t know, so let me make the distinction clear. For example - the distinction is very subtle - both Buddha and Mahavira have taught about fasting, both have taught about brahmacharya, celibacy. Are they teaching suppression? They cannot - and they are not teaching it.
When Buddha says, “Go on a fast,” what does he mean? Suppress your hunger? No. He says, “Watch your hunger.” The body will say, “I am hungry.” You simply sit inside your being and watch. Don’t do anything either to feed the body or to suppress the hunger. You simply watch the hunger. No activity is needed on your part - and suppression is an activity. When you suppress hunger, what you will do? You will not be able to watch it. In fact, that is the only thing that you will avoid.
A person who wants to suppress hunger and who has gone on a fast, as Jainas do every year, what will they do? They will try to distract the mind somewhere else so that the hunger is not felt. They will chant mantras, or they will go to the temple and recite sutras, or they will go to their religious leader to listen to him so that the mind is engaged and they need not pay attention to the hunger which is there. This is suppression. Suppression means: something is there and you don’t look at it and you pretend it is not there. So if you are deeply occupied in the mind, then the hunger cannot penetrate and cannot bring your attention to itself. The hunger will go on knocking on the door, but you are reciting a mantra so loudly that you don’t hear the knock. Suppression means distracting your mind from the reality of your being.