Chapter 16: Will or Surrender?
A Buddha is not a believer - he knows. When I say he knows, knowing is possible only in one way. It is not through mind, it is through throwing mind completely. It is difficult to conceive because we have to conceive through the mind, that is the difficulty.
I have to talk to you through the medium of the mind, and you have to listen to me through the medium of the mind. So when I say it is not to be achieved through mind, your mind takes it - but it is inconceivable for the mind. It can even create a theory about it. You may begin to believe that the truth cannot be achieved through mind. If you begin to believe, you are in mind again. You can say, “I am not convinced. I don’t believe that there is anything beyond the mind.” Then again you are within the mind.
You can never go beyond the mind if you go on using it. You have to take a jump, and meditation means that jump. That’s why meditation is illogical, irrational. And it cannot be made logical; it cannot be reduced to reason. You have to experience it. If you experience, only then do you know.
So try this - don’t think about it, try - try to be a witness to your own thoughts. Sit down, relaxed, close your eyes, let your thoughts run just like pictures run on a screen. See them, look at them, make them your objects. One thought arises: look at it deeply. Don’t think about it, just look at it. If you begin to think about it then you are not a witness - you have fallen in the trap.
There is a horn outside, a thought arises - some car is passing; or a dog barks, or something happens. Don’t think about it, just look at the thought. The thought has arisen, taken form, now it is before you. Soon it will pass, another thought will replace it. Go on looking at this thought process. Even for a single moment, if you are capable of looking at this thought process without thinking about it, you will have gained something in witnessing and you will have known something in witnessing. This is a taste, a different taste than thinking - totally different. But one has to experiment with it.
Religion and science are poles apart, but in one thing they are similar and their emphasis is the same; science depends on experiment, and religion also. Only philosophy is non-experimental. Philosophy depends just on thinking. Religion and science both depend on experiment: science on objects; religion on your subjectivity. Science depends on experimenting with things other than you, and religion depends on experimenting directly with you.
It is difficult, because in science the experimenter is there, the experiment is there and the object to be experimented upon is there. There are three things: the object, the subject and the experiment. In religion you are all the three simultaneously. You are to experiment upon yourself. You are the subject and you are the object and you are the lab.