Chapter 2: Accept Yourself As You Are
Learn more and more to be in a state of non-chattering - the inner talk has to stop. Then your mind is not hindering; then you are available; then your deepest shrine of being is available to me. But by and by, you will learn. In the beginning, it happens so. You have always been talking, and if you are very articulate in talking, then of course you feel crippled. If you are very articulate and you can talk beautifully, artistically, if you can play perfectly with language and then suddenly you come to me and your throat does not allow you to speak.and something goes wrong and the mechanism doesn’t function: you feel that you are crippled. But you are not crippled - the impact of my presence has simply given a shock to the mechanism of your mind. And it is good. Don’t try to bring it back. Let it go. Be quiet, still, silent and waiting. Be feminine.
A disciple needs to know how to be feminine, that is, how to be like a womb so that he can receive and he can become pregnant. Unless you become pregnant, nothing will happen to you. You can learn so many things here with me, but that learning will be more and more a burden to you, not a freedom; it will create more chains for you. Then you may not be chained by Christianity; you will be chained by my words. Then you may not believe in the Vedas, but then my words will become the Vedas.
No, I am here to make you utterly liberated, including from myself
You are my disciple only if you remember this: that one day or other you have to become liberated from me also. Only then have you obeyed me; only then will I be happy with you. But if you cling to my words.. What I say is not very meaningful, what I say is not significant: what I am not saying, what I cannot say - nobody can say - only that is significant. Listen to that which is not said. Listen to the gaps in the intervals. Read between the words and between the lines. If you forget the words, nothing is lost; but if you forget that which is between the words, much is lost.
Your gestalt has to change. That is the difference between a student and a disciple: a change of gestalt, a change of attention, of focusing, a shift. The student listens to the word; the disciple listens to the gap between two words. The student reads the lines; the disciple, between the lines. If to a student I give an empty book, he will not be able to understand it. But if to a disciple I give an empty book, The Nothing Book, he will preserve it as a treasure.
In the Sufi tradition there is a book called The Book Of The Books. Nothing is written in it; empty pages, almost three hundred empty pages. You go on reading, but you can never finish it. It has been passed from one generation of masters to another. It has been lovingly preserved, worshipped, because it says nothing, but it shows much. It says nothing, but it indicates much. If all the Vedas and the Bibles and the Gitas and the Korans disappear, nothing will be lost. But if this Book Of The Books is lost, everything is lost. Because if you can read this book of nothing, The Book Of The Books, Vedas can be rediscovered, Bibles can be written again; because all the blueprints are there. Out of the empty mind the Gita can be produced again, because that is how it was produced in the first place. A man, Krishna, became empty, and answered Arjuna’s questions from his emptiness - responded. Out of that emptiness, out of that Book Of The Books, the book Gita was born.