Chapter 7: The Ego Is the Judas
Judas had chosen a kiss as an indication.
He said to the multitude, to the enemies, “Whomsoever I shall kiss, that same is he; hold him fast.” He could have chosen some other gesture also. Anything would have been indicative, so why a kiss?
A part of him loved Jesus; a part of him loved him tremendously. Never be very hard on Judas. Christians have been very hard. Have compassion. Never be very hard on Judas, because he is hidden within you also. Don’t just hate him because he betrayed, because you also have the same tendency to betray. Every human being is prone to become a Judas. I say to you, have compassion on him. Try to understand him. Why had he chosen the kiss? He could have chosen any indication.
A part of him really loved Jesus, but a part hated him. It was a love-hate relationship. It was both, a dichotomy. Remember, if your love is nothing but an opposition to hate, he hate will exist within you. There is another dimension of love where love is only the absence of hate, not opposite to it. I teach you that love: love as an absence of hate. The real problem is not how to love; the real problem is how to understand hate and drop it through that understanding. Don’t hide your hate, don’t suppress it; bring it out, get rid of it. Before you can be able to really love and love totally, hate has to be dropped. You can do a simple thing: you can hide the hate and you can go on loving. But the hate which is hiding behind you is going to betray, some day or other. You are a Judas, and you are going to be a Judas.
Until Judas betrayed Jesus, he himself was not aware of what he was doing. He became aware only when Jesus was crucified, when he himself saw what he had done. Then he became aware. Then he repented, and committed suicide.
“.I shall kiss, the same is he; hold him fast.” And forthwith he came to Jesus, and said: “Hail, Master;” and kissed him.
In that same hour said Jesus to the multitudes: “Are ye come out as against a thief with swords and staves for to take me? I sat daily with you teaching in the temple, and ye laid no hold on me.”
Jesus was moving with the multitudes, in the marketplace, in the temple; he was teaching. He said to these people, “Why have you come with swords and staves, as if you have come against a thief? And I have always been a part of you, I have always lived amongst you, I have been teaching in the temple, so why do you come in the middle of the night with swords, with such a big crowd to catch me, to hold me? Why? You could have caught me any day. And there is no need for swords. You know well that I have got no swords to fight with.” What was Jesus saying to them? He had not said a single word to Judas. That’s very, very meaningful.