Chapter 4: Madness or Meditation
For example, many people come to me. They start meditating. In the beginning there are sudden flashes, but only in the beginning. Once they have known certain experiences, once they have known certain glimpses, everything stops. And they come to me weeping and crying and they say, “What is happening? Something was going to happen, something was happening, now everything has stopped. And we are trying our best, but nothing, nothing comes out of it.”
I tell them, “It happened for the first time because you were not expecting. Now you are expecting so the whole situation has changed. When you had that feeling of weightlessness for the first time, a feeling of being filled by something unknown, a feeling of being carried from your dead life, a feeling of ecstatic moments, you were not expecting it. You had never known such moments. For the first time they were falling on you. You were unaware, unexpecting. That was the situation.
x; it has been a gift. It has been an overflowing of the divine. Forget it. Don’t expect it, don’t demand it. It will come next day again - deeper, higher, greater. It will go on expanding, but every day drop it from the mind.
There is no end to its possibilities. It will become infinite; the whole cosmos will become ecstatic for you. But your mind has to be dropped. Your mind is the madness. So when I say there are only two alternatives, madness and meditation, I mean mind and meditation. If you remain confined in the mind you will remain mad. Unless you transcend the mind you cannot transcend madness. At the most you can be a functioning member of the society, that’s all. And you can be a functioning member of the society because the whole society is just like you. Everybody is mad, so madness is the rule.
Become aware - and don’t think that others are mad; feel it deeply that you are mad and something has to be done. Immediately! It is an emergency! Don’t postpone it because there may come a moment when you cannot do anything. You may go so mad that you cannot do anything.
Right now you can do something. You are still within limits. Something can be done, some efforts can be made; the pattern can be changed. But a moment can come when you cannot do anything, when you have become completely shattered and you have lost even the consciousness.
If you can feel that you are mad this is a very hopeful sign. It shows you can become alert towards your own reality. The door is there, you can become really sane. At least this much sanity is there - that you can understand.
The second question:
Capacity of right-knowledge is one of the five faculties of the mind, but it is not a state of no-mind. Then how is it possible that whatsoever one sees through this center is true? Does this center of right-knowledge function after enlightenment, or can even a meditator, a sadhak, be with this center?