Chapter 1: Mastered by Zen
So they make a life of routine, dead routine. They move like dead corpses - waiting and waiting and waiting. And every day they know death is coming near: they become more and more desperate. Their whole life will turn into a mechanical routine.
Really if you want to live, you have to be spontaneous. Life is spontaneous. Be available to this moment. Allow this moment to lead you. Don’t plan for it otherwise you will live in empty gestures, obsessed with dead routine, just thinking as if.if you plan your life completely, some day or other the great happening is going to result.
Do you think life is a result? Life is not a result; it is already there. It is a grace. Nothing is to be done to attain to it. What have you done to be born? What have you done so that you can breathe? What have you done so that you can be conscious? What have you done so that you can fall in love? It has happened. It is a sheer grace, a gift.
Yes, let me tell you - life is a gift. Don’t think that it is going to be a result. Once you think it is going to be a result, it is never going to be there at all.
And then there are a few people who will go on waiting and waiting, and they will die. Almost ninety-nine percent of people die this way. Their whole life has been a sheer waste. One percent of people - sometimes by chance, accident - become aware that they are wasting their life. Then their whole training and conditioning takes a subtle revenge.
The day that they become aware they have been waiting for something which is not waiting for them, which is not going to happen, they start saying that life is meaningless. First they were waiting for some meaning; now, because that meaning is not happening, they say life is meaningless. First they were waiting for some purpose; now, because it is not happening, they say life is purposeless.
Ask Jean-Paul Sartre. He says, “Man is a useless passion.” It does not say anything about man. It does not say anything about life. It does not say anything about existence. It simply says that Sartre has missed. It simply says that he was waiting for some utilitarian end to be fulfilled in life and now he has become aware that it is not going to be fulfilled. He was waiting for some meaning. Now, seeing it, realizing it - that that meaning is not going to be - he says life is meaningless.
Life is neither. It is neither meaningful nor is it meaningless. If really there is no meaning, how can life be meaningless? If there is no purpose, how can life be purposeless? For life to be purposeless there must be a purpose. For life to be meaningless, for even the word meaningless to be meaningful, there must be a meaning.