Chapter 5: Meditation and the Paths to Inner Awakening
So, as the mind dies - when I say the mind dies, I only mean the walls of the mind - the emptiness within this space remains, becomes greater. That is consciousness. Make a distinction: I call the emptiness within, “consciousness,” and the walls around it “the mind.” Or you can say it like this: mind with a small m dies, mind with a capital M goes on living. Then it is not your mind. It cannot be yours. If these walls are removed, this room will not be mind. The room will be there, but it will not be mind, because mind can only be the walls. Mind can only be the limitations. This pure emptiness cannot be mind. So when the mind with a small m dies, and the mind with a capital M is there, you are not there. And you are not replaced by any other mind. You are not replaced at all.
So, meditation is a subtle death - a deep death of you, your mind, your ego, of all that makes you defined. But that which is within remains. That is pure consciousness.
So, first: the walls of the mind - the mental processes - are not meditation. They are obstacles. What are walls of the mind? How has the mind defined itself? How has it become a limited thing? Where are the boundaries - the walls - due to which the “mind” has become separated from the “Mind”?
There are three things. The first is memory: the greater part of the mind is memory. And this memory is long. It goes back to all the infinite lives that you have lived. The mind accumulates everything - not only that which you have collected consciously. When you are asleep the mind is collecting. When you are even in a coma, completely unconscious, the mind is collecting. The mind goes on collecting. Nothing escapes it. The unconscious mind is a great Chinese wall of memories - a very long one.
This memory is not only a part of your brain, but in fact a part of each and every cell of your being, of each and every cell of your body. That is why twenty-three chromosomes from the male, and twenty-three chromosomes from the female begin to create you. They have a built-in program; they have a built-in memory. One day, we will be capable of knowing what type of a nose you will have, even on the first day you are in the womb. The new egg will indicate what type of eyes you will have, how long your life will be, how much intelligence, how much ego..
That simple-looking cell is as complex as you are. It has all the memories of the whole race. It continues the collective mind. And then your soul, your ego, your mind, penetrate into it. So the body has its memories, and your mind has its own memories. You are a crossroads - a mind with so many memories, and a body with so many memories of the whole collective race, the whole collective mind. Bodily memories are stronger than the mind. So you are always a victim to them. Howsoever you may think against them, when the moment comes the body wins. Your mind is nothing before it, because it is a racial mind. That is why all the religions fell into a trap when they began to fight the body - you cannot fight it. If you begin to fight it you will only be wasting your life.
You cannot fight with the body because, in fact, it is the race. Not only the race - it is the whole history of the being itself. Things go on living in you. Everything that has existed goes on living in your body. Your own self carries everything within it. That is why a child in the womb has to pass through all the stages through which the human being passes in evolution.