Chapter 7: Any Moment!
When I say drop your memory, I mean psychological memory; I don’t mean factual memory. Buddha remembers perfectly that yesterday this man had spat on him, but he also remembers that neither this man is the same nor is he the same. That chapter is closed; it is not worth carrying it your whole life. But you go on carrying. Somebody had said something to you ten years before and you are still carrying it. Your mother was angry when you were a child and you are still carrying it. Your father had slapped you when you were just small and you are still carrying it, and you may be seventy years old.
These psychological memories go on burdening you. They destroy your freedom, they destroy your aliveness, they encage you. Factual memory is perfectly okay.
And one thing more to be understood: when there is no psychological memory, the factual memory is very accurate - because the psychological memory is a disturbance. When you are very much psychologically disturbed, how can you remember accurately? It is impossible! You are trembling, you are shaking, you are in a kind of earthquake - how can you remember exactly? You will exaggerate; you will add something, you will delete something, you will make something new out of it. You cannot be relied upon.
A man who has no psychological memory can be relied upon. That’s why computers are more reliable than men, because they have no psychological memory. Just the facts - bare facts, naked facts. When you talk about a fact, then too it is not fact: much fiction has entered into it. You have molded it, you have changed it, you have painted it, you have given it colors of your own it is no more a fact! Only a Buddha, a Tathagata, an enlightened person, knows what a fact is; you never come across a fact, because you carry so many fictions in your mind. Whenever you find a fact, you immediately impose your fictions on it. You never see that which is. You go on distorting reality.
Buddha says a Tathagata is always true, because he speaks in accordance with reality. A Tathagata speaks truth, never otherwise. A Tathagata is synonymous with suchness. Whatsoever it is, a Tathagata simply reflects it; it is a mirror.
That’s what I mean: Drop psychological memories and you will become a mirror.
You have asked: “You implore us constantly to give up memory, to live in the here and now.”
That does not mean that your past cannot be remembered, because past is part of the present. Whatsoever you have been in the past, whatsoever you have done in the past, is part of your present, it is here. Your child is in you, your young man is in you.all that you have been doing is in you. The food that you have eaten, it is past, but it has become your blood; it is circulating herenow; it has become your bone, it has become your marrow. The love that you went through may be past, but it has transformed you. It has given you a new vision of life; it has opened your eyes. Yesterday you were with me - it is past, but is it really totally past? How can it be totally past? You were changed by it; you were given a new spur, a new fire - that has become part of you.
Your present moment contains your whole past. And if you can understand me, your present moment also contains your whole future -because the past as it has happened has been changing you, it has been preparing you, and the future that is going to happen will happen the way you live in the present. The way you live herenow will have a great impact upon you future.