Chapter 19: Deeper and Deeper into the Mysterious, the Miraculous
If you are somehow fearful and detest the commune, that simply means you have not yet come close to me - not at all. You say you feel you understand me clearly, every word that I utter, you understand it, and yet you have the feeling that you don’t understand me at all. Your second part is right, you don’t understand me at all. You only understand the words that I speak. And the words that I speak are just simple, ordinary, day-to-day use words. Anybody can understand those words. I am not a scholar, I am not a theologian. I am not crazy enough to be esoteric.
I am speaking to you - not even giving a discourse. It is just a heart-to-heart talk. Words you understand - that gives you the misconception. To understand my words is not the real thing. There is something more between the words, between the lines, in the moments when I suddenly pause in the middle of a sentence. If you understand those pauses, those moments of silence, those gaps between two words, no dictionary is needed. No dictionary can manage to explain those gaps, those intervals.
That wordlessness is my real message.
I am using words only to create wordlessness as a contrast. Forget everything that I have told you, but remember all those moments when I was silent. It is a strange way of speaking - nobody speaks that way. But when I stop, you are also in a stop.waiting, awaiting what I am going to say. Catch those wordless moments. I am there, and you will find yourself also there.
The Bible says, “In the beginning there was the word.” This is sheer stupidity. In the beginning - if there was any beginning - there was wordlessness. The Bible says, “And the word was with God.” What kind of reasoning is this? First you say, “In the beginning there was only the word.” Then from where does this God come? And The Bible says not only this, it says, “The word was with God and the word was God.” It is just the opposite of reality.
In the beginning there was wordlessness - and there was no God with wordlessness. And the question of God being one with wordlessness is absolutely stupid, because god itself is a word and nothing else.
That silence was not only in the beginning; it is in the middle too, it is in the end too. It is always. It surrounds you twenty-four hours a day. But the difficulty is, not only a single word but millions of words are with you. They make a very thick wall between you and existence. You are encaged in words - Christian, Hindu, Mohammedan, Buddhist. The sermons in the churches, in the synagogues, are just words.
I am not giving you a sermon, I am simply creating a device, using two words to make you aware of the pause in between; only then will you understand. And it is not a question of understanding me, understanding is simply understanding.
When you bring a lighted torch into a dark room, it shows you the whole room, all that is there: the paintings on the walls, the furniture, the floor, the ceiling. Understanding is a quality in you. It has not to be connected with me. It is not linear, it is multidimensional. The moment you understand, the whole existence is an open book for you. Then all the mystifications of the religions disappear. Remember, I am saying “mystifications,” I am not saying the “mysteries.”