Chapter 20: It Is All Happening Silently
He went there. The archer was very loving, very happy that the old man still remembered him and had sent his son. The son saw the big bow hanging on the wall. He asked, “What is it?”
And the archer said, “I used to know what it is.now I don’t know. I will have to ask; somebody must know.”
But the son said, “I have heard you are an archer.”
He said, “I used to be in my youth, and in youth everybody is foolish. I used to be, but your father brought me to my senses.”
This was reported to the old man, that he had forgotten the name of the bow. The old man said, “That means he has proved his mettle. I will have to go down before I die to declare him the champion, the master archer.”
Now he was also capable - just looking at a bird was enough to kill it. Just those two rays going from the eyes were enough, because his inner being was so solidly immobile that those two rays became like arrows. He said, “Now I understand the meaning of the old saying: The musician breaks down his musical instruments when he really becomes a master. Then what is the use of those instruments.because they are still part of the world of sound, and the real music is silence.”
Even when you are listening to music, what really touches your heart is not the sound but the gap between two sounds. How to bring that gap to your heart is the whole art of music. But if a man can bring that gap just by his presence, and you fall into deep silence, you will know the real music. Then you will know that what you used to think of as music was only a preliminary training. And the same is true about dancing, the same is true about every creative art. What it appears to be is not the reality; it is just a device so that you can become aware of something intangible, hidden, beyond.
But to love music is good, to love dance is good, to play music is good, to dance is good - but remember, that is not the end. You have to go far - away from music, away from dance - to understand the real beauty of any creative art. Every creative art brings you to your innermost being where there is just calmness, utter quietness, absolute silence. Then you can say, “I have heard that which cannot be heard. And I have seen that which cannot be seen.”
Until now I have not had many sexual experiences, but lately I have felt to become more sexually active. I seem to avoid heterosexual men, and desire those who are homosexual.
I am not clear if I am running away from sex out of fear, or towards people I really like and need. Would you please shed some light on this?
It is possible that avoiding sex for a long time and now getting interested in it you will have to go slowly towards it.