Chapter 11: Mysticism: Conscious Anarchy
This point has to be understood very deeply, because you can live in anarchy without any awareness also. If you live in unconscious anarchy, anarchy but with unawareness, the result will be an evil man. You may have convinced yourself that you are living free of any mold, but no, your life is molded. If you live with unawareness, but according to some moral code and discipline and not anarchically, then you are a so-called virtuous man. But in anarchy, with no rules, no scriptures, no mold and with awareness - as if awareness is the only scripture, as if to keep oneself awake is the only and suprememost regulation - this is truly the routine of the life of the mystic. It is not proper to call it even a routine, because routine implies his actions are thought out. Whatever happens through living in wakefulness, that is the behavior of the mystic. Conscious behavior is godliness. So the lives of no two mystics will be alike; and if you seek to understand a mystic, then start by looking at his life as a mystery.
There are two ways to understand. Imagine a flower has blossomed: now, you can look at it as a scientist.. Break it down into pieces, separate the petals and parts, analyze it in its various chemicals and minerals, investigate the whole arrangement that led to this flower’s particular form. This is the way of science, and it depends on breaking down and analyzing. Every detail of the flower may be known, but in the process the flower will disappear, its beauty will disappear, because whatever this flower was lay in its totality. By breaking the petals and collecting the chemical constituents in different bottles, the flower’s formula may be written down on paper, but the flower itself will disappear. Its flowering, its freshness, its beauty, will all disappear. The flower that grew like the phrase of a divine melody, the flower that existed like a living gesture of the divine, has disappeared. Instead there is a formula on paper. This is science’s way of understanding.
This is why science is not in any position to understand the soul - because there is no way to break down the soul for analysis. Science can understand the body because the body can be dissected. It can know the body because the body’s physical constituents can be separated - how much water, how much oxygen, how much hydrogen, the different minerals and so on. But the soul is indivisible; it has no constituents so it cannot be analyzed.
Science says that if something cannot be analyzed then it cannot be said to exist, since there is no way to understand it. There is no way to understand even that it is. Hence science can never accept the soul, unless the soul is willing to be broken down into pieces, which is not the nature of the soul. So science can never accept God. It accepts the world, the creation, but not a creator, because only the creation can be defined. This is one way of understanding.
There is another way of understanding, and this belongs to the mystic - not to the scientist but to the sage. If you ask a mystic, “What is a flower?” the last thing he will do is break the flower, because then it will no longer be a flower. Whatever you may then come to know will not be what you were seeking in the first place. Its nature has changed. So the mystic will not even separate the flower from the tree, because cut from the tree the flower is an altogether different thing. The difference is of life and death. Growing on the tree the flower was alive; separated from the tree it is dead. It is exactly like the difference between you and your corpse. Just in plucking the flower, the mystic will say, you have altered its nature, and what you will now come to know about will be a dead thing. Your information will be about death, whereas your inquiry was about the living flower.