Chapter 9: Kundalini, Shaktipat and Grace
Deep and fast breathing is bound to have a profound effect on the kundalini. And all the centers, which you call chakras, are nothing but resting places for the kundalini on its journey. These are the centers through which the kundalini passes. There are many such centers, and there are different estimates of the number of them. But broadly speaking there are seven important centers where the kundalini, while moving up and down, is likely to halt and rest for a while. And the kundalini will have its effect when it comes in contact with them. Its first effects will be felt on the center which is your most active one. For instance, if a person is constantly working with his brain, then with deep breathing his head will become very heavy. This is because his brain center happens to be his most active center. The first impact of breathing will be felt in his head, his active center, and it will become heavy. And if a person is sexual, his sex center will be stimulated first. Similarly a loving person will find his love stimulated, enhanced and flowing. And if someone is emotional, their emotions will be heightened.
So first the most active center will be hit and stimulated by deep and fast breathing. But very soon it will begin to affect other centers too. And thus a change, a transformation of the personality, begins on many levels simultaneously. You will start to realize that you are changing; that you are not the same person that you were up to now.
We don’t realize that there are very many possibilities within each one of us. We are familiar only with our active and dominant center, which is where we exist. So when another center opens up, we feel that our old personality is gone and a new person has come in its place, or we feel as if we are not the same as we were before. It is like this: I am aware of only one room in the house where I live, and I carry the imprint of this room in my mind. And suddenly one day a door opens and another room appears before me. Then my whole mental map of the house will undergo a change. Now the house that I had thought was mine will be a very different house, and I will need to arrange it anew.
So as the various centers are hit and activated, new dimensions of your life will begin to unfold and manifest themselves. And when all the centers become active together - that is, when energy is flowing through them all equally - then for the first time we will live a whole life; we will live totally.
Ordinarily no one lives wholly, totally. We all live fragmentary lives. All our higher centers remain untouched. Deep breathing is going to hammer and activate them all.
And the question “Who am I?” does the same thing, but it hammers the centers from another direction. So try to understand it, as you now understand the functions of deep and fast breathing, how the chant of “Who am I?” works on the kundalini.
You don’t understand why, when you close your eyes and visualize a naked woman, your sex center is immediately stimulated. You are just imagining and yet your sex center has been aroused. Why? In fact, every center has its own images, and if you visualize something similar, the center concerned will be stimulated immediately. So no sooner you think of and imagine sex, your sex center starts working; you are sexually aroused.
And you will be surprised to know that in this matter a real naked woman may not be as exciting and effective as the thought of her. The reason is that the thought of the naked woman will take you into your imagination, which will start hitting the sex center immediately and powerfully. But a real naked woman cannot take you into imagination, because she is directly before you, she is so immediate. So she will affect you only to the extent a real object can. While the real woman hits you from the front, the imaginary woman will hit you from within. And a frontal attack cannot be as powerful and deep as an attack from within.