Chapter 14: Beyond Science Is Knowing
He said, “The truth is that I never mix water into milk, I always mix milk into water - and that makes all the difference. My oath is absolutely correct. But please don’t say it to anybody, otherwise they will start asking me to take the oath the other way and that I cannot do. I mix them, but I always mix milk into the water. I am making the water also milky. I am not destroying milk, I am just changing the quality of the water.”
I said, “You are really a religious man.” Now what he is saying is simply the same.
For thousands of years, anybody who has reached to the point of no-mind and only awareness has given names which are far more meaningful than J. Krishnamurti’s words. For example Patanjali’s word is the most important and the most ancient: samadhi. In Sanskrit, sickness is called vyadhi, and to go beyond all sickness is called samadhi. It has a beauty: going beyond all sickness; attaining wholeness, perfection. It has a beauty and a meaning.
Gautam Buddha used the word nirvana, because he was trying to make an effort twenty-five centuries after Patanjali. In these twenty-five centuries Patanjali had been misused. The people who were trying to reach samadhi made it some kind of ego trip. The word samadhi is very positive - beyond all illness, wholeness. There is a loophole in it: it can give you an idea that “I will become perfect, beyond all limitations, all sicknesses. I will become whole.” But the danger is that this “I” may be your ego - most probably it will be, because your mind is still there.
The samadhi is true when the mind is gone. Then you can say, “I have gone beyond sickness” because the ego was also a sickness - in fact the greatest sickness that man suffers from. Now your “I” does not mean ego. It simply means your individuality, not your personality. It simply means the universal in you, just the dewdrop which contains the ocean. The emphasis has changed completely. It is not the dewdrop that is claiming; it is the ocean that is proclaiming.
But because many people became egoistic. And you can see those people even today. Your saints, sages, mahatmas, are so full of ego that one is surprised - even ordinary people are not so full of ego. But their egos are very subtle, very refined.
Gautam Buddha had to find a new word, and the word had to be negative so that ego could not make a trick for itself. Nirvana is a negative word; it simply means blowing out the candle, a very beautiful word. Blowing out the candle, what happens? Just pure darkness remains. Buddha is saying that when your ego has disappeared like the flame of the candle, what remains - that silence, that peace, that eternal bliss - is nirvana.
And certainly he was successful: nobody has been able to make nirvana an ego trip. How can you make nirvana an ego trip? The ego has to die. It is implied in the word itself that you will have to disappear in smoke. What will be left behind is your true reality, is your pure existence, is your truth, is your being - and to find it is to find all.