Chapter 9: The Golden Alchemy
A happy person drowns in himself. Only sad people need entertainment. A happy person is beyond mind; there is no need to entertain it. When you have no mind, what is there to entertain? A happy person is so engrossed in himself, so immersed, so enraptured in his own being, his own being is so sufficient for him that nothing else is needed. He lives in supreme satisfaction and contentment.
The search for the divine means only this: “I want something so that I no longer need to search for my happiness outside of myself, so that I can find my happiness within myself, so that the fountainhead of my happiness can burst forth within me.”
When this moment comes, the drop instantly becomes the ocean and all boundaries immediately dissolve. On that day you are neither the body nor the mind; on that day you are the universal self. The day the divine descends into the devotee, the devotee becomes the divine.
And always remember that the most fundamental point about a devotee is that he never says, “I did this, I took vows, I observed the precepts of religion, I fasted - therefore you must come to me.” No. This is not the talk of a devotee. This is the talk of a shopkeeper: “You must come to me because I did this for you.” This is not the language of a lover, this is the language of a deal. It is as if you are saying, “If you don’t come to me, I will take you to court. I have fasted for so many days and so far nothing has happened.”
Your so-called ascetics are trying to find the divine using their own strength, and their strength is only a proclamation of their ego. So you will find a great flush of ego on the faces of your so-called yogis, mahatmas and monks - a great pride. The lamp of the ego is burning there.
A devotee is humble. He says, “Nothing happens through my doing. Whatever happens is because of the divine.” What room is there for pride, for arrogance, in this? The devotee says, “I have no claim to being worthy.” He simply says, “I know my unworthiness.” Every day he presents his unworthiness before the divine and says, “I am unworthy, but please come - because if you ask me to be worthy, then the whole thing is beyond me. And if you require that I am worthy, then what of your compassion? This is what I am - good or bad, this is how I am. Accept me, make me your own.”
The prayer of a devotee arises from his humility. Ego arrogantly says, “I have done so much, I have done this and that.” The devotee says, “I have only one strength - that you have made me. My strength is only one: that you may not have forgotten me, no matter how easily I forget you. My strength is only one - that you are my source. I have come from you so I can call out to you. You made me - however I am.”
If you can understand this concept of devotee, then these verses of Daya are absolutely unique.
When you are with me,
I am connected with the world
In a thousand ways.
When you are not,
What is the world to me?