Chapter 7: You Become the Offering
Contemplating you floods me with a deep ecstasy, and I feel the grace. You say you are not doing anything to create this ecstasy in us, but it is for sure that I also am not doing anything. Then from where is this bliss coming and how is it happening if neither you nor I are doing anything? Is it possible for you to explain more about the mystery of it? What is this phenomenon which we call grace?
It can happen only when neither the disciple nor the master is doing anything; it can happen only in a nondoing, absolute nondoing, because grace is not something you can do anything about. You can simply be receptive, open, that’s all. Nothing positively can be done about it. It is already flowing - the whole existence is filled with grace.
You are closed, and the more you do something, the more you will become closed - because every effort gives you a more egocentric feeling; whatsoever you do creates your ego. You feel I am doing something - and whenever you do something you start thinking of the future, of the result. You start expecting.
So two things happen: firstly, whatsoever you do becomes a food for the ego; secondly, whatsoever you do leads you into the future, then you are not here and now. And these both are the barriers. One thing: you must be here and now, and you must not be - you must not be - an ego. Then you are open, and whenever you are open the grace is already flowing; it has been flowing forever. If you are not getting it, it is not something that you can get by doing. The more you do, the more it will be impossible for you to get it.
The whole effort of the master is to teach you nondoing, nonaction. Or in other words, the whole effort of the master is to take you back - to teach you how to die, how to throw the ego completely, and how to be in a state of nothingness, a state of nonbeing. Buddha called that state anatta, the state of no-self: you are but you are not a self. Then there is no boundary to it, then there is no barrier around you, then all the doors are open - then life can flow, come and go, through you. Grace is not something special that is going to happen to you: grace is the very existence itself, it is grace-filled. The blessing is showering on you.
I will tell you one Buddhist anecdote - it happened in Buddha’s time. One of Buddha’s great disciples, Manjushree, was sitting under a tree meditating. Then suddenly he became aware that flowers were dropping from the tree, many flowers showering. But he was surprised because it was not the season for the flowers, and just in the morning when he had come there was not a single flower on the tree - so where were these millions of flowers showering all around coming from?
So he looked at the tree. Then he was even more mystified, because they were not coming from the tree, they were showering from the sky. So he asked, “Who is doing this? What is happening?”
A voice was heard, “We are the deities, and we are happy that you have attained, and just to express our happiness we are showering these flowers.”