Chapter 5: The Whole Challenge of Life
This is not recorded in the Christian gospels because much is left unrecorded in Christian gospels. But it is one of the oldest Essenes traditions. It has been handed over, this story, from master to disciple down the centuries. It is one of the most meaningful stories about Jesus: his insistence that the one must be known first, because it is the one which is the base of all.
When you are awake, you are one. When you fall asleep, you become many. Have you watched it? - in a dream you play so many roles simultaneously. In the morning when you are awake, you are one. In the dream you are the dreamer, you are the dreamed; you are the director of the dream, you are the actor, you are the story, you are the stage, and you are the audience too. You become many, you become split, you become a crowd. In a dream, you are no more one. When you are awake, suddenly the director, the actor, the story, the stage, the drama, the audience, the dreamed and the dreamer, all disappear into one unity. Hindus call this whole world a dreamland - maya. We are fast asleep. So to search the one, or to search awareness, is the same; because by becoming aware, you become one - or, by becoming one, you become aware.
Now let me explain to you how, in so many ways, in millions of ways, we are searching oneness. The child is born. His first functioning in the world is through eating; his first functioning in the world is through absorbing matter. The search has started: matter wants to meet matter. Matter wants to have an organic unity with other matter: matter is being pulled by matter, attracted by matter. This is the first love - food. Food gives the first orgasm to the child. When you feel satisfied after taking food or drinking water, that satisfaction is a feeling of oneness: matter from the outside has been absorbed into the inside, the inner and the outer have met. The meeting is not very deep - it cannot be, it is of matter; it is very superficial but still it is there.
Hindus call this, the first chakra, muladhar. There are many people who live at this first chakra. They simply go on eating and defecating. Their whole life is nothing but absorbing matter and throwing matter out; their life is very mechanical. It is very, very narrow - a small tunnel. muladhar is the smallest aperture in your being from where the light enters into you, and you enter into the existence. The smallest aperture is muladhar - the first center. It starts functioning because the child has to survive; he has to take food first, otherwise he will die. It is a survival measure - but one should not live to eat. If you are just living only to eat, you are not living at all. You are simply waiting for death. And you have chosen a very small pleasure, very ordinary pleasure - just titillation, and you will be finished with that small pleasure. And immense possibilities surround you..