Chapter 5: How to Avoid the Ditches
These preachers who are talking about heaven and hell, who are talking about God and truth, have never entered their own being. I have met with almost all types of monks, priests, preachers, philosophers - none of them is interested in meditation. They are all playing games of the mind, which are childish, absolutely meaningless. You can go on playing those games and wasting your whole life.
I teach you a simple thing: just be silent, utterly silent, and you will have found all the treasures and all the mysteries and all the secrets of existence.
The dictionary definition of humble is: “Having or showing a consciousness of one’s defects or shortcomings. Not proud, not self-assertive, modest.” Is a rebel humble? Is there more to the definition of humble?
The dictionary definition of humble is one thing, but to know humbleness as an experience is totally another. The dictionary is the world of words, and humbleness..
So, do you want to discuss the word humble or the experience of humbleness? They are totally different things. The word love will have a dictionary meaning, but the experience of love will be a totally different thing. So always remember, the dictionary meaning is not relevant in this gathering of mad people. Their search is for the living experience, not for dissection of dead words.
The dictionary meaning almost always falls short of the actual experience. For example, the dictionary meaning of humble is, “Having or showing a consciousness of one’s defects or shortcomings. Not proud, not self-assertive, modest.” All these three things have to be understood.
First, the man of humbleness is not an exhibitionist; he does not show a consciousness of his defects or shortcomings. A man of humbleness simply is no more; he exists without an ego, without a personality. And without a personality you cannot have shortcomings and you cannot have defects. These are possessions of the ego. That’s why ego feels a deep inferiority complex whenever it sees some defect, some shortcoming.
The dictionary meaning is that if the ego accepts and shows its shortcomings and defects to people, it is humble. But the existential humbleness simply means egolessness: there is nobody to experience defects, there is nobody to compare oneself with others as being inferior, as having shortcomings.
Second, the dictionary meaning says, “not proud.” Anybody who says, “I am not proud” will be proud of this very fact. He will declare loudly, “I am not proud,” and if you say, “I am even more humble than you, even less proud than you,” he will feel offended. He is proud, but from the back door. The true humbleness knows nothing of pride or no pride. Just a small child.does he know if he is proud or not proud?