Chapter 10: Making a Nuisance
These are all nonsense searches, it is not true seeking. Nowhere does there exist something chemical, alchemical, like elixir, ambrosia - no. The secret is in seeing life and death as a single process. You cannot find the secret anywhere. The philosopher’s stone exists nowhere; it exists in this fact that life and death are together. They are one process, a unitary phenomenon. Then you are not afraid. Then rather, on the contrary, you are thankful to death, because life becomes possible only because of death. Through death life becomes possible; through dying everything is renewed.
So death is not against life, it is not the opposite, it is not the enemy. It is through death that life becomes possible: you are alive because you can die. If you cannot die you will not be alive at all. You don’t know what you are asking for if you ask for deathlessness. Then you will be like a rock; then you cannot be alive.
Look at the flower that bloomed this morning. Just near the flower there is a rock. By the evening the flower will be gone but the rock will be there, because the flower is more alive and the rock is not so alive. The flower is dead by the evening. What do you want? - to be a rock-like phenomenon or a flower-like phenomenon? Why does the flower die so soon? - because it is so alive, so intensely alive, that death comes quickly, it doesn’t linger on. The flower was not dragging; it lived the moment, it lived totally - it danced under the sky, it enjoyed the sun, the breeze. For a moment it was eternity. The flower laughed, the flower sang, the flower did whatsoever was to be done, and by the evening the flower was ready to die - and without a single tear in her eyes, without weeping and crying.
Look at a dying flower: the petals have already fallen on the ground, but you can never say that it is ugly. It is beautiful in death also. Then look at a man dying: he becomes ugly. Why? - because of the fear. Fear makes you ugly. If you are too afraid you will become more and more ugly. The flower is fulfilled; now the time to rest has come and the flower is going to rest, and when the rest is over the flower will come back.
Again and again.life is an eternal recurrence. Death is just a rest. You need not be worried about it, you simply live. And if you live then you are not serious. If you are afraid of death then you are serious. To be sincere is one thing, to be serious is another. A man who loves life is sincere, authentic, but never serious. Life is not like an illness. If you are looking at death and are obsessed with death, then life is just serious - then you will become a long face. You may move to the monasteries, to the temples, go to the Himalayas, but you will remain a long face. It is fear that has taken you to the monastery.
Remember, an authentic religious person is not fear-oriented, he is love-oriented. A really authentic religious person becomes religious to enjoy life more, to enjoy it deeply and totally. He is not scared. A really religious man looks at life as a game: it is not business, it is a game. Hindus call it leela, a play - not even a game but a play. There is a difference between a game and play. Children play, but you even make a game out of play. Then it becomes business-like, then even in playing you are seeking victory, success, gain, profit.