Chapter 6: Now Is Not Part of Time
Never be inauthentic with God because that is the way of not being with him. If you are insincere with God, deep down you are complaining, and on the surface praying? - then God will see the complaint, not the prayer. You have been false. He can look directly into your heart. Whom are you trying to deceive? The smile on your face is not going to deceive God; your truth will be known to him. He can only know your truth; lies don’t exist for him. So let the truth be there. You simply present your truth to him and say: “Today I’m angry, I am angry with your world, I am angry with you, I am angry with my life. I hate it! And I cannot pray, so you will have to remain without my prayer today. I suffer much; now you suffer.”
Talk to him as one talks to one’s lover, one’s friend, one’s mother. Talk to him as one talks to a small child.
I was staying with a family, and the mother ordered the small child to pray. He was very interested, and he was not ready to go to sleep, and he wanted to be with me a little longer. But the family was very disciplinarian, so they said, “Now it is nine o’clock. You go and sleep, and don’t forget your prayer.” He was angry - I could see it.
He went into his room. I followed just to listen to what he was going to pray. In the darkness I heard him say, “God, make bad people good and good people nice.”
He knows his mother is good, his father is good, but not nice. I have heard about another child..
He was staying in a guest house with the family. The first night he prayed. He always used to sleep with a small light on, but there was no light and the electricity had gone. Suddenly, as he prayed the electricity disappeared. He was just getting into his bed, and he told his mother, “Let me get up again and let me pray again more carefully, because the night is going to be dark.” First he had just prayed by the way, but now the night was going to be dark and there was no light and he was more afraid.
He said, “Let me pray again. Let me get out, and let me pray more carefully, because now there is more danger.”
Listen to children’s prayer and become a child.
All the religions say that God is the father. In fact, the emphasis should be that man is the child. That is the real meaning when we call God “the Father.” But we have forgotten; God is the father but we are not his children. Forget whether he is the father or not. You just be a child - spontaneous, true, authentic. Don’t ask me and don’t ask anybody how to pray. Let the moment decide, let the moment be decisive, and the truth of the moment should be your prayer.
That’s my answer: the truth of the moment, whatsoever it is, unconditionally, should be your prayer. And once you allow the truth of the moment to possess you, you will start growing, and you will know tremendous beauties of prayer. You have entered on the path. But if you simply go on repeating a certain prayer, a technique, then you will miss. You will never enter on the path, you will just remain outside.