Chapter 2: Become a Flame
You get it? The priest is going to exploit you; he becomes your lawyer, he becomes you agent. He himself is completely unaware of God - otherwise he would not be a priest; he would have been a prophet, not a priest at all. Priest is an ugly word: one who is using religion as a business and exploiting people in the name of God. The prophet is one who helps you to be transformed, transfigured. The prophet is not so much concerned with God as he is concerned with you, your reality. Once your reality starts manifesting you will know what God is - because you are God in seed. We can completely forget about God: Buddha never talked about it, Mahavira never talked about it. Yet Buddha helped tremendously. He insisted: God is not the question, God is not the quest; the quest is your innermost being. A prophet is concerned with your being. If your being flowers, blooms, in the fragrance you will know what god is. There is no other way.
By prayer, by the temple, by the church, by the ritual, tradition, you are not going to get anywhere; only the priest will go on becoming richer and richer. And his investment becomes so big that the priest and the politician join together in exploiting people. That is the greatest conspiracy: down the centuries, the priests and the politicians have always joined hands together. They are the greatest culprits. Jesus was crucified because he was not a priest. He started behaving like a prophet, priests are afraid - because he is going to destroy the whole business. Jesus was crucified because of the priests; the priests were behind the whole scene. No prophet is ever tolerated by priest - cannot be tolerated; it is dangerous.
So if you incident had helped you to become aware of priest, it was good. But somehow your association went wrong. Don’t go to a church, there is no need; God is everywhere. Don’t go to a priest, there is no need; God is available to you - directly, immediately. But if you have a resistance to the word God itself, that will become a barrier. That will prohibit you; that won’t allow you to flow towards the infinite. and there is no reason - because God has not done anything. The priest turned away, but do you know that God turned away? God has never turned away from anybody. In fact, because the priest turned away, God may have looked and cared for the dying man more - because there was no other help. When a man is helpless, God simply starts flowing towards him. In tremendous helplessness you become receptive. When the man was completely helpless, and the priest turned away, and the man dying and death is enclosing upon him - in that helplessness he must have made a contact; you cannot see it from the outside.
Be against the priest. But there is no need, it is not warranted at all, that you say, I know God is within me. You don’t know, you know it not at all. You have heard it. You have heard me say it, you have heard Jesus saying it - “God is within you” - but you don’t know it at all. Because once you know it, then there is no problem; knowing that “God is within me,” immediately God is without too. The moment you know a single ray of the divine penetrating you, you have come to know all that is there to be known, it becomes known, the without is known. The without known, it become known in the within too - because within and without are not two separate things, they are two aspects of the same energy.