Chapter 4: Love Is Death
But nothing to be worried about.. The journey is going to be a long journey; Anupam will take time, maybe years, but nothing to be worried! She is on the right track. And she has crossed the point from where she could have gone back; she has crossed the point of no-return. So it is only a question of time. She is available to me. I never force anybody, because there is no need. And it is good to give them time and enough rope, so they come on their own. When surrender is out of freedom, it has a beauty.
But you can trust it is coming, it is on the way. In the deepest core of your being it has already happened; now it is just a question of time, so that the deepest core informs your superficial mind. In your heart you have already come to me; only in the mind there is struggle. At the center you have already come closer to me; only on the periphery there is fighting going on. The headquarters have really already surrendered.
You must have heard about a Japanese soldier who was still fighting.the second world war was over, so many years had passed, and twenty years after the second world war he was still fighting - he had not heard that Japan had surrendered. He was somewhere in the deepest forests of Indonesia, and still thinking that he belonged to the emperor of Japan and the fight was on. He must have been mad; he was hiding and escaping and killing people, alone!
When just a few years ago he went back to Japan, he was given a hero’s reception. He is a hero in a way. He was unaware.but he must be a man of great will. He had heard from others - not that he had not heard; how can you avoid for twenty years? - that Japan had surrendered, the war had finished. But he insisted: “Unless I receive an order from my commander, I will not surrender.” Now the commander was dead, so there was no way to receive an order from the commander, and he was going to fight his whole life. It was very difficult to catch hold of him, he was very dangerous - but he was caught.
Exactly that is the case with Anupam. The headquarters have already surrendered, the commander is dead! Just on the periphery, somewhere in the forests of Indonesia you are fighting, Anupam. But sooner or later, howsoever mad you are, you will receive the news.
The second question:
I would like to become true, but what is it and how is it? I feel in a devil-circle, in a prison. I would like to come out, but how?
The first thing: you are not in a prison. Nobody is, nobody ever has been. The prison is make-believe. You are unconscious, certainly, but you are not in a prison. The prison is a dream, a nightmare, that you have managed to see in your sleep. So the basic question is not how to come out of the prison, the basic question is how to come out of the sleep. And there is a great difference in how you articulate the question. If you start thinking, “How to come out of the prison?” then you will start fighting with the prison, which is not; then you will be moving in a wrong direction.