Chapter 30: Laughter and Tears - a Cleansing of the Heart
And then the second part is “Yaa-Boo.” The first part removes everything that hinders your laughter - all the inhibitions of past humanity, all the repressions. It cuts them away. It brings a new space within you, but still you have to go a few steps more to reach the temple of your being, because you have suppressed so much sadness, so much despair, so much anxiety, so many tears - they are all there, covering you and destroying your beauty, your grace, your joy.
In old Mongolia they had an ancient idea that every life, whatever pain is suppressed.and pain is suppressed, because nobody wants it. You don’t want to be painful so you suppress it, you avoid, you look somewhere else. But it remains.
And the Mongolian idea was - and I agree with it - that life after life it goes on accumulating in you; it becomes almost a hard shell of pain. That’s why all the saints and the sages have been telling you, shouting - “Go into yourself!” You listen to them, but you don’t go. There is a reason why you don’t go: you know that going in, you have to encounter pain; going in, you have to encounter misery, suffering, agony. It is better to remain outside - engaged, busy. Never be alone, because in your aloneness you may unconsciously start moving inwards. Being alone, having nothing else to do you may start looking inwards.
People have invented all kinds of things to escape from themselves: they may smoke cigarettes.Not that they need them. I have never felt any need for cigarettes, so I cannot conceive that there is any necessity for anybody to be so stupid. When pure air is available, he is making his breathing full of poison, and he is paying for it! But there must be some reason. Why do millions of people go on smoking? The reason is, it keeps you occupied. Even if you are alone, it does not leave you unoccupied.
These are devices of your mind. There are people who are chewing gum. Now what a nonsense thing to do! - chewing gum? Are you sane or insane? Can’t you chew anything else? No sane person can do this unnecessary exercise of chewing gum. But it keeps you occupied, so millions of people are chewing gum.
All your conversations, your so-called busyness is almost without any purpose, without any business. But it helps just one thing: you don’t come across yourself. There is too much pain.
So you can listen to the sages, to the awakened ones, and you can nod - “You are right, but my time has not come yet. Please forgive me; I have still to chew gum, I have still to smoke cigarettes. You are great, you can drop these things; we are small people, how can we drop cigarettes and chewing gum?”
Just see the stupidity of it all. But behind the stupidity there must be some psychology and the psychology is: anything that helps you to avoid yourself becomes useful. Football match, volleyball, boxing.somebody else is doing it, you are just looking, but that looking takes you away from your own inside.