Chapter 8: Always Remember to Laugh Twice!
Then suddenly you are so far away from the mind, you will laugh how you could believe in the first place that you were the mind, how you could believe that you were the body. It will look simply ridiculous. You will laugh at the whole stupidity of it.
“Not to be identified with mind and body - still I don’t know how to do it.” Who is asking this question, “How to do it?” See it immediately; who is asking this question, “How to do it?” It is the mind who wants to manipulate, it is the mind who wants to dominate. Now the mind wants to use even Patanjali. Now the mind says, “Perfectly true. I have understood that you are not the mind” - and once you realize that you are not the mind you will become a super-mind. The greed arises in the mind, the mind says, “Good. I have to become a super-mind.”
The greed for the ultimate, for bliss, the greed to be in eternity, to be a god, has arisen in the mind. The mind says, “Now I cannot rest unless I have achieved this ultimate, what it is.” The mind asks, “How to do it?”
Remember, the mind always asks how to do a thing. The “how” is a mind question. Because how means the technique. The how means “Show me the way so I can dominate, manipulate. Give me the technique.” The mind is the technician. “Just give me the technique and I will be able to do it.”
There is no technique of awareness. You have to be aware to be aware. There is no technique. What is the technique of love? You have to love to know what love is. What is the technique of swimming? You have to swim. Of course in the beginning your swimming is a little haphazard. By and by you learn.but you learn by swimming, there is no other way. If somebody asks you, “What is the technique of bicycling?” - and you do bicycle, you ride on the cycle - but if somebody asks, you will have to shrug your shoulders. You will say, “Difficult to say.” What is the technique? How do you balance yourself on two wheels? You must be doing something. You are doing something, but not as a technique; rather as a knack. A technique is that which can be taught, and a knack is that which has to be known. A technique is that which can be transformed into a teaching, and a knack is something that you can learn but you cannot be taught. So learn by and by.
And start from less complicated things. Don’t suddenly jump to the very complicated. This is the last, the most complicated thing: to become aware of the mind, to see the mind and see that you are not the mind. To see so deeply that you are no longer the body and no longer the mind, that is the last thing. Don’t jump. Start with small things.
You are feeling hungry. Just see the fact. Where is the hunger - in you, or somewhere outside you? Close your eyes, grope in your inner darkness; try to feel and touch and figure out where the hunger is.