Chapter 26: The Moment You Find the Truth, Everything Stops
A great fear grips him. He takes his shoes off so that no noise is made on the steps. Who knows? - hearing the noise on the steps, God himself may open the door! And he runs away with his shoes, as fast as he can, as far away as he can.
And then he starts searching for God again - with the same joy, with the same agony, with the same ecstasy. And now he knows the house of God; so he avoids the house of God and searches for him everywhere else, where he is not! Because the search is so beautiful, he sacrifices finding for the search.
It is a very strange poem - nothing like this has ever been written in the whole history of literature - but greatly significant. He knows perfectly where God is. He can go directly and knock on the door, but he is not going to do that - he avoids him.
First it was God who was hiding, and he was seeking. He still pretends to seek, but the reality is that he is hiding and God is seeking. Because in strange places.he comes around his home, and then he has to escape from there. It has great insight.
The seeking is not eliminated by my statement. It is enhanced; so much so that the sought becomes secondary, and the seeking becomes primary, more significant.
And I made that statement so that if somebody wants to choose to move alone, I should be of some help to him - even though he is going to move alone, even though he does not want to have a master. But the master’s compassion cannot see him moving on a path which is going to be dangerous and long. The master cannot do anything else on the path, but he can at least give him an insight, that finding is not such a great thing as seeking is.
And unless this enters into the heart of the seeker who is going to be alone, he cannot remain alone. I am not saying he should remain alone - he can choose a master. I am simply making it clear that both are possible.
There have been both types of people. There are old, traditional people, who all insist that without the master you cannot find - categorically, without any exception. And there is J. Krishnamurti, against the whole tradition, saying that you cannot find if you have a master - again, categorically, without any exception - you can find only alone.
I am saying something against both, that they are making absolute statements which are not true. There are always exceptions; and particularly in the world of spirituality where freedom is the law, you cannot enforce such categorical statements - both are taking away that freedom.
The tradition is preventing you from moving alone; J. Krishnamurti is preventing you from moving with a master.
My own experience is that ninety-nine percent of the people will move with a master. Perhaps one percent will be able to move alone. But both are valid ways, and I don’t see any contradiction.